Yeah, I always knew deep down that none of it was real but I never would admit it to myself cause I was so scared of reality. But later (in high school) it got harder to understand that it wasn’t real and I started acting strangely because of these feelings which terrified me. Now if I’m presented with a concept that’s hard to put into fiction or reality then I start to freak out. Thank you for sharing this though! I also react very strongly to characters. I have to pace myself every time I watch something new cause I know it could put me in a bad state for weeks (I saw the recent movie “Joker” and loved it and felt totally okay the whole time but the next day I was nauseous all day and kept thinking I was hallucinating stuff. Messed up my brain for a couple weeks)
I don’t understand who I am or what’s real
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Yeah, I always knew deep down that none of it was real but I never would admit it to myself cause I was so scared of reality. But later (in high school) it got harder to understand that it wasn’t real and I started acting strangely because of these feelings which terrified me. Now if I’m presented with a concept that’s hard to put into fiction or reality then I start to freak out. Thank you for sharing this though! I also react very strongly to characters. I have to pace myself every time I watch something new cause I know it could put me in a bad state for weeks (I saw the recent movie “Joker” and loved it and felt totally okay the whole time but the next day I was nauseous all day and kept thinking I was hallucinating stuff. Messed up my brain for a couple weeks)