Wow I never thought I could open up about this phobia of mine, but you guys all give me hope! Pretty much word for word to this original post here. Also I was diagnosed with OCD just a few weeks ago so it's interesting to see a possible connection here. Anyway, the ONLY thing that's ever "helped" for me is intimate time with my boyfriend- I actually WANT to hear/feel it then. Otherwise, even close cuddling or something sans the arousal is once again completely unbearable when it comes to that stupid heart.
to Ocean29's comment about being disconnected, I think that may have some truth to it. I also suffer from PTSD which makes my anxiety about all this even worse. However, in group therapy I am being taught "grounding" techniques and I'm wondering if once I master those, it will help with the heart thing as well? I sure hope so- this really is debilitating as all hell. I'm sick of the panic and not being able to trace it back to anything since, like many of you, I've been like this since I was very very young. Luckily in college I no longer have to deal with those stupid health tests and pulse checking in PE- I didn't think I'd survive all that stress!! But it seems like there are a lot of us in this boat, so there must be SOME explanation and SOME escape!! good luck to us all ;)
I despise my heartbeat, so I was curious...
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Wow I never thought I could open up about this phobia of mine, but you guys all give me hope! Pretty much word for word to this original post here. Also I was diagnosed with OCD just a few weeks ago so it's interesting to see a possible connection here. Anyway, the ONLY thing that's ever "helped" for me is intimate time with my boyfriend- I actually WANT to hear/feel it then. Otherwise, even close cuddling or something sans the arousal is once again completely unbearable when it comes to that stupid heart.
to Ocean29's comment about being disconnected, I think that may have some truth to it. I also suffer from PTSD which makes my anxiety about all this even worse. However, in group therapy I am being taught "grounding" techniques and I'm wondering if once I master those, it will help with the heart thing as well? I sure hope so- this really is debilitating as all hell. I'm sick of the panic and not being able to trace it back to anything since, like many of you, I've been like this since I was very very young. Luckily in college I no longer have to deal with those stupid health tests and pulse checking in PE- I didn't think I'd survive all that stress!! But it seems like there are a lot of us in this boat, so there must be SOME explanation and SOME escape!! good luck to us all ;)