I have considered that this may be a manifestation of my fear of death as well. Yet, I am still not quite sure.
I know that everyone says this (and close to no one really means it), but the idea of death doesn't really scare me so much. I've never been one of those people who finds horror movies that frightening, for example, because all they ever are is dead body after dead body. I'm not really sure how else to explain this whole thing so well, though, so perhaps you really are onto something. In addition, though, hearts themselves don't really bother me. I've had to study them multiple times through school, and done things like dissecting animal hearts. Gotta say it's all pretty cool. They're super as long as they don't move!
Oddly enough, there is ONE heartbeat that doesn't do this to me, and which is going to sound cheesy and like I can't possibly mean the rest, haha. But oh, well; it's my boyfriend's. I can't get enough of it. It's like after all these years, it's so nice to finally be able to stand one that I could practically drink it.
And I don't know if that means I have the potential to get over my own heart or not, or whether it changes possible reasons for my aversion.
I don't even like feeling my kitten's heart when I hold him. It's pretty lame.
Wow... Well honestly how I got to ur story was because I was talking to my frnd and I found myself expressing my fears and feelings towards heart beats. I felt like a freak when I was telling him. He did some research and told me I wasn't the only one which was a huge relief... I read ur story and connected with it completly I cannot tolerate it whatsoever ... To the point where i cant stand the backround heart beat effect in movies either! Health class was a dread, we had to watch movies where we would listen to the bby in the mothers womb and u could hear its heart beat. I would freak out and pray it would be over soon... I guess I was scared that my heart would pick up the same pace as the heart beat and that my heart would go off beat and stop... It's getting worse and worse now I have the constant feeling my heart is going to stop beating... Do u have any advice?? I would really appreciate it
I despise my heartbeat, so I was curious...
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I have considered that this may be a manifestation of my fear of death as well. Yet, I am still not quite sure.
I know that everyone says this (and close to no one really means it), but the idea of death doesn't really scare me so much. I've never been one of those people who finds horror movies that frightening, for example, because all they ever are is dead body after dead body. I'm not really sure how else to explain this whole thing so well, though, so perhaps you really are onto something. In addition, though, hearts themselves don't really bother me. I've had to study them multiple times through school, and done things like dissecting animal hearts. Gotta say it's all pretty cool. They're super as long as they don't move!
Oddly enough, there is ONE heartbeat that doesn't do this to me, and which is going to sound cheesy and like I can't possibly mean the rest, haha. But oh, well; it's my boyfriend's. I can't get enough of it. It's like after all these years, it's so nice to finally be able to stand one that I could practically drink it.
And I don't know if that means I have the potential to get over my own heart or not, or whether it changes possible reasons for my aversion.
I don't even like feeling my kitten's heart when I hold him. It's pretty lame.
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Wow... Well honestly how I got to ur story was because I was talking to my frnd and I found myself expressing my fears and feelings towards heart beats. I felt like a freak when I was telling him. He did some research and told me I wasn't the only one which was a huge relief... I read ur story and connected with it completly I cannot tolerate it whatsoever ... To the point where i cant stand the backround heart beat effect in movies either! Health class was a dread, we had to watch movies where we would listen to the bby in the mothers womb and u could hear its heart beat. I would freak out and pray it would be over soon... I guess I was scared that my heart would pick up the same pace as the heart beat and that my heart would go off beat and stop... It's getting worse and worse now I have the constant feeling my heart is going to stop beating... Do u have any advice?? I would really appreciate it