Damn, yeah, it's awful, had plenty of opportunities when i was in my very early teens in a special education school with two girls that were of normal intellectual and cognitive developmental with minimal issues socially and probably slight learning difficulties or emotional issues, but as I grew older, those only ones just became farther from me and as result of neglect I started to develop some kind of psychosomatic stuff such as fear of losing my intestines when having a bowel movement in a toilet and repeatedly googling rectal prolapse and as well developed a severe form of 'dissociative' psychosomatic syndromde aged 16 in which i woke up in a pre-army dorm room where everything felt unreal and i could't really catch a breath and the world seemed werid and then i phoned my phone and begged to him to take me back home since i felt something like an asthma attack and out of fear i just lied about having asthma due to being convinced that it is my first asthma attack and this continued on until i was put on Escitalopram (SSRI) which made me hyperactive and as well gave me grandiose delusions over time in which i lifted incredibly heavy dumbbells (Were not recommended for my size) but still did, though with some difficulty but the insecurities following me just forced my brain to push to the limits and I once accepted on challenging a friend with fist fight in middle of a street with rules however (no punch in the face or the balls) and he beat me easily and left marks on me, I thought i'd get him easy or restrain him because he told me that even petite ladies could arm wrestle him with ease and I fell into that trap that I could just wrestle him easily with one hand, and thought that the person would particularly make a joke out of himself and under-estimated him on many levels physically, except maybe, intellectually. I just have must of have thought at the moment that I have to be skilled even with basic martial arts techniques and movements and there I would get him without plain simply using brute strength merely meant for lifting weights or arm wrestling. As well thought that physical strength would somehow gain me social status and was sort of aggressive online on facebook and threatened people physically and sold them short for small stature and muscle mass. My brain's weird shit bro.
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Damn, yeah, it's awful, had plenty of opportunities when i was in my very early teens in a special education school with two girls that were of normal intellectual and cognitive developmental with minimal issues socially and probably slight learning difficulties or emotional issues, but as I grew older, those only ones just became farther from me and as result of neglect I started to develop some kind of psychosomatic stuff such as fear of losing my intestines when having a bowel movement in a toilet and repeatedly googling rectal prolapse and as well developed a severe form of 'dissociative' psychosomatic syndromde aged 16 in which i woke up in a pre-army dorm room where everything felt unreal and i could't really catch a breath and the world seemed werid and then i phoned my phone and begged to him to take me back home since i felt something like an asthma attack and out of fear i just lied about having asthma due to being convinced that it is my first asthma attack and this continued on until i was put on Escitalopram (SSRI) which made me hyperactive and as well gave me grandiose delusions over time in which i lifted incredibly heavy dumbbells (Were not recommended for my size) but still did, though with some difficulty but the insecurities following me just forced my brain to push to the limits and I once accepted on challenging a friend with fist fight in middle of a street with rules however (no punch in the face or the balls) and he beat me easily and left marks on me, I thought i'd get him easy or restrain him because he told me that even petite ladies could arm wrestle him with ease and I fell into that trap that I could just wrestle him easily with one hand, and thought that the person would particularly make a joke out of himself and under-estimated him on many levels physically, except maybe, intellectually. I just have must of have thought at the moment that I have to be skilled even with basic martial arts techniques and movements and there I would get him without plain simply using brute strength merely meant for lifting weights or arm wrestling. As well thought that physical strength would somehow gain me social status and was sort of aggressive online on facebook and threatened people physically and sold them short for small stature and muscle mass. My brain's weird shit bro.