I desire older men and women.

I am a young guy who has a large preference to men and women who are significantly older than me. Ever since I was 14, I desired sex with older people, and this caused me to flirt with a 24 year old guy and a 23 year old girl when I was just 15. I lived very far away from them, and they felt strange and guilty that they liked such a young boy. I have been told by many that I am very mature, intelligent, and funny which might explain why older people are attracted to me. I would consider myself to be very self-aware and conscious which is why predators didn't take advantage of me. It has become weirder lately as I find myself attracted to men and women in their thirties.

It's strange really. I hate relationships and I am emotionally cold most of the time, but whenever I fantasize of kissing or being embraced by an older man or woman, I start crying and I just feel so much in my heart. I have a shaky relationship with my parents, so that might explain it.