when i used to cut it was a vice to numb my emotions. it was a way to cry since tears wouldn't flow. i needed a release somehow and so i made a lil slice once i saw my blood drip i felt a little relief, as if the pressure valve was releasing the steam.
It then transformed into an addiction to feel physical pain over emotional. I hated feeling upset because when i did people would look at me as if something was wrong with me because i wasnt my happy normal self. Before Cutting became so popular, i kept it a secret. But it was hard in the summer wearing long sleeves and arm socks is just beggin for attention.
Anyways, It's not good to bottle up emotions no matter what others think. U shouldn't care really. I mean in the end it's about what makes you feel stable. What you do to get thru it may not be conventional in the eyes of those who don't understand what you're going thru. You have to Work thru your demons by your terms, no one elses. This is your life, not theirs. Alot of us whether we admit it or not are working thru some issues in our lives. trying to fit into this society is difficult when it doesn't accommodate or praise ppl who are different, who think outside of the little boxes we're taught to live in.
Everyone copes in their own way i guess, sometimes it may not seem like such a good idea.
I cant stop wanting to self harm
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when i used to cut it was a vice to numb my emotions. it was a way to cry since tears wouldn't flow. i needed a release somehow and so i made a lil slice once i saw my blood drip i felt a little relief, as if the pressure valve was releasing the steam.
It then transformed into an addiction to feel physical pain over emotional. I hated feeling upset because when i did people would look at me as if something was wrong with me because i wasnt my happy normal self. Before Cutting became so popular, i kept it a secret. But it was hard in the summer wearing long sleeves and arm socks is just beggin for attention.
Anyways, It's not good to bottle up emotions no matter what others think. U shouldn't care really. I mean in the end it's about what makes you feel stable. What you do to get thru it may not be conventional in the eyes of those who don't understand what you're going thru. You have to Work thru your demons by your terms, no one elses. This is your life, not theirs. Alot of us whether we admit it or not are working thru some issues in our lives. trying to fit into this society is difficult when it doesn't accommodate or praise ppl who are different, who think outside of the little boxes we're taught to live in.
Everyone copes in their own way i guess, sometimes it may not seem like such a good idea.