Don't wait until you feel like you 'deserve' help. Your first port of call is a responsible, trusted adult. This adult will not be able to help you directly because they won't be trained, but they will probably be able to help you to get help. Unless you present a significant danger to your own immediate safety or someone else's, most of these sources will be confidential, so your parents will not be told. It's good to access help early because then there's less chance of things getting so bad that you do something that puts your immediate safety in danger.
As per formalin's comment, antidepressants plus benzos are medicines that some doctors prescribe but they aren't the only solutions, and if you can avoid going down that route it's better, because all medicines have unintended effects. They're well and good if there's nothing else, but benzos can give you dementia if taken long term, and antidepressants do change your character in subtle ways, and can take away the pain of bad circumstances to such an extent that you can lose the motivation to get out of them at all. Not to mention, it isn't nice to be chemically bound to going to regular doctor's appointments (once you're on antidepressants you have to keep on them for a number of months, so you keep having to get the doctor to assess how your body is coping with the drug and prescribe you more or less of it). That can be harder to hide from a parent, too.
I can't tell my parents that I think have depression and need help
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Don't wait until you feel like you 'deserve' help. Your first port of call is a responsible, trusted adult. This adult will not be able to help you directly because they won't be trained, but they will probably be able to help you to get help. Unless you present a significant danger to your own immediate safety or someone else's, most of these sources will be confidential, so your parents will not be told. It's good to access help early because then there's less chance of things getting so bad that you do something that puts your immediate safety in danger.
As per formalin's comment, antidepressants plus benzos are medicines that some doctors prescribe but they aren't the only solutions, and if you can avoid going down that route it's better, because all medicines have unintended effects. They're well and good if there's nothing else, but benzos can give you dementia if taken long term, and antidepressants do change your character in subtle ways, and can take away the pain of bad circumstances to such an extent that you can lose the motivation to get out of them at all. Not to mention, it isn't nice to be chemically bound to going to regular doctor's appointments (once you're on antidepressants you have to keep on them for a number of months, so you keep having to get the doctor to assess how your body is coping with the drug and prescribe you more or less of it). That can be harder to hide from a parent, too.