I am starting to hate my father and sometimes i want to kill him

I´m 18 yeard old, my mom left me with my father when i was 6, my father raise me and i apreciate that but he recently is calling me a idiot, jackass, clown and telling me bad things. He support me in evrything (whit money) but he humiliate me at home, he allways call me when he cant find the remote control, when he cant find his cellphone or his shoes. One night i was sleeping and he woke me up because he could not find the remote. also when he is back from work he make me take away his shoes from he´s feets!! like if i am hes made or something, he is very lazy. I am a good student, i graduated from highschool with honors and i am currently doing college. He always is using the computer, almost 6 hours a day just watching videos in youtube; and when i tell him "hey dad can i use the computer?, i got to do some homework to do" he answer " in a minute" when he finish is after midnight so i can only use the computer when he is sleping so i have to use it at 1 o 2 in the morning so i always wake up late because of him.
When he leaves i am so happy but when he come back i am sad again, the only thing that have me alive is my girlfriend .

Because i have good grades i am trying to get a scholarship to another country just to be far away from him, a love him but he is just a bad dad, and i hate my mom for let me with him, she screw my life :(

Please people pray for me

PD: english is not my first language sorry for all the misspellings

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  • randomjelly

    So he makes you help him find things, take off his shoes and hogs the computer? Oh yeah...totally deserves death.

    Please don't reproduce.

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  • it's ok i have a simaler situation' kind of. My dad as a child would spank me and my sisters if we were bad and i get that lot's of people do that. well as we got older he stopped and would simly throw us against the wall (not to hard) or threaten to break our necks and stuff. Now dont get me wrong i love my dad but i belive the first time he touched me or my sisters i lost complete and utter respect for him. I wanted to kill him. You have some issues, thats ok just work through them and hopefully have a better relasionship with your dad : ]

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  • ever consider his emotions? maybe his stress raising you? maybe you and your friends eating him out of house and home. I am sure you add to the stress, as well as he to yours. Its what family does. You need to have a heart to heart when things are good, not during a stressful event. If it fails to provide results, you need to move out and be on your own.

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  • spoon4d

    what skin colour do you have ?
    depends on the danger level for your dad
    Black = Medium
    White = Medium
    Arab/brownish = *hears ticking*

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  • nappy_happy69

    I can't stand my parents as well..but I would not want to "kill" them nor harm them in any way/wish harm on them. If ur that unhappy with them ignore them and move out.

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  • f.lovely

    why dont you try and tell him that he makes you feel like shit and it is ruining your respect for him and your relationship with him.theres a small chance he can come to his senses and maybe say a brief sorry so it would help you to feel a bit better....but generally-the only way out of this situation is to leave the house and get a life outside of his control,cos people know what they do and dont change easily.when you leave him behind you'll feel free but guilty until the rest of your life,because he is your family and you wished you could do something to make it work...and when he dies alone one day,...you'll feel so bad...because you wished it didnt have to be like that.thats just life,its very ugly,try to be a good man and keep a good heart...dont be a spiteful dickhead like him.i have exactly the same problem,my father beat the shit out of me when i was 17 for coming home tipsy at 1am from a nightclub,he threatened to kill be and told me a lot of shit,-i slashed my wrists to make him stop attacking me.my family never stopped him or told him anything,i didnt see them for the last 4years,my mom begged my phone number from distant friends and calls me sometimes,talk some rubbish.avoiding talking about what happened and now tells me it never happened and that im a fantasist...i wish i could ignore her too,but have no heart to avoid her anymore cos she is suffering in her way..she is a dickhead just like my father and i cant do anything about,i wish i could delete my memory and not remember where i come from...not gonna happen lol ive got amazing memory,i remember every pixel of that shit;(((( so youre in a good company mate,definitely not alone lol.Lena,33

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  • imhungry

    That's not normal that want to kill your dad just because he makes you do things. I'd rather do that than get my ass beat which i dont recall you mentioning. If you're 18 why dont you just move out on your own so you can do what you want. No matter how old you are if you live with your parents you have follow their rules. So the best option is to move out on your own.

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  • Sabaky

    That is terrible!!! Tell your teachers and friends or a theropist

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  • Flirty108

    One of these days your gonna crack especially igneous the type who holds in every emotion you feel. Your gonna explode no one is gonna expect it!

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  • Move away and forget about him. Living a great life despite his efforts is the most fulfilling revenge you'll ever have.

    But don't be embittered with him or give him evil for his own.

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  • kricket

    Well, um killing is not the answer in any event in life. Move out.

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