Sounds like there is a lot of psychology involved in this. My thoughts are that maybe you have parents who are anal about excellence or are perfectionists or your life is always unreasonably happy...perhaps you are very, very good looking? Specific things like that could possibly leave you excited by imperfect things. In a way, it's almost a temptation.
Additionally, it sounds like you don't necessarily only enjoy the end result, but the act of breaking these things as well. Therefore, I would imagine you have some sort of built-up resentment and taking it out on objects is a way in which you aren't harming any real person AND seeing these objects/items/things a little damaged gives you some sense of satisfaction. Almost like vengeance. For instance, if you call a woman you despise a fucking cunt and it doesn't effect them, it may bother you because they are unphased by your attempt to hurt them. Obviously, with laws, you can't go punch that woman in the face, assuming you are a man. With an object, oppositely you aren't going to call it a fucking cunt, but you CAN punch it and not only that, it's gratifying because unlike the person, you can see the long-lasting impact you've had on it, and you know that you've damaged it- which is what you might have wanted for the aforementioned woman.
Bottom line, maybe you hurt or have been hurt and it was never addressed and, in response, you hurt other things.
Maybe I'm totally off, but people don't do what you're doing without some underlying reason. Horders, for example, horde because they can't let go, or for other hundreds of reasons.
My mother dated someone when I was a boy, and his son would punch holes in walls and spit loogies in the sink and leave them sitting in the bowl of it there. Obviously, he had some aggression problems, but when I look back I see that his dad was quite the hard ass. If he felt he couldn't attack his father, but wanted to, these were possible ways of acting out. Though that's considerably different, there are some similar concepts as far as him wanting to punch the wall of a perfectly fine door.
I am sexually excited by the action of halfway breaking things.
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Sounds like there is a lot of psychology involved in this. My thoughts are that maybe you have parents who are anal about excellence or are perfectionists or your life is always unreasonably happy...perhaps you are very, very good looking? Specific things like that could possibly leave you excited by imperfect things. In a way, it's almost a temptation.
Additionally, it sounds like you don't necessarily only enjoy the end result, but the act of breaking these things as well. Therefore, I would imagine you have some sort of built-up resentment and taking it out on objects is a way in which you aren't harming any real person AND seeing these objects/items/things a little damaged gives you some sense of satisfaction. Almost like vengeance. For instance, if you call a woman you despise a fucking cunt and it doesn't effect them, it may bother you because they are unphased by your attempt to hurt them. Obviously, with laws, you can't go punch that woman in the face, assuming you are a man. With an object, oppositely you aren't going to call it a fucking cunt, but you CAN punch it and not only that, it's gratifying because unlike the person, you can see the long-lasting impact you've had on it, and you know that you've damaged it- which is what you might have wanted for the aforementioned woman.
Bottom line, maybe you hurt or have been hurt and it was never addressed and, in response, you hurt other things.
Maybe I'm totally off, but people don't do what you're doing without some underlying reason. Horders, for example, horde because they can't let go, or for other hundreds of reasons.
My mother dated someone when I was a boy, and his son would punch holes in walls and spit loogies in the sink and leave them sitting in the bowl of it there. Obviously, he had some aggression problems, but when I look back I see that his dad was quite the hard ass. If he felt he couldn't attack his father, but wanted to, these were possible ways of acting out. Though that's considerably different, there are some similar concepts as far as him wanting to punch the wall of a perfectly fine door.