I am obsessed pls help
i am a girl of 22.. .i used to study well and passed out with engineering...i love a guy for more than one year..he is working in a distant country.. .i meet him only once a year..we speak everyday ...he is really everything for me...i cant concentrate on anything for few days other than him...he is also very affectionate over me...but at times i feel like im missing him and start thinking and crying...i know he will not leave me but i dont know why im crying...i cry for everything...we are getting lots of misunderstandings nw adays...im too much possessive on him so i think that i shold guide him in everything...i at sometymes behave like a wife and tell him wat to do with money whom to speak and everything....in my point of view im doin with much care but it reaches wrong...at times i feel very jealous of his family i dont know y...due to this we fite a lot..even my frens say im stupid on him...i try to divert in other things but i cant...i really dont know y i behave like this..im becomin like a psycho..i sometymes spk very harshly but all because of too much affection over him...this leads to lots of tension...and he finds that im immature childish and torturing him...at times i control myself not to call him wantedly but i could not be without speaking...i feel like i want him with me all times...but i know it is not possible....due to these things i really cant concentrate on anything...im so depressed...i think im a big trouble to his life...im so stupid...he says nowadys he s feeling irritated with me...im afraid that i will miss him ..i cant be witout him..i love him so much...i just want to come out of this situation ...i want to be a normal girl...i want him to miss me...i cant do anything always thinkin of him like mad..daily i feel a piece of shit being like this am losing my dignity too.if anybody reads this pls come forward to help me...thank u frens in adv..tc