I am in love with my "straight" best friend

I am a gay male and a few months ago a friend and I started getting really close. We worked together and it started one night when we had a drink and let to many more nights hanging out at my place all night for many nights in a row. He is straight and has a girlfriend. We started getting really close and the first night we actually hung out we made out. This let to a little bit of oral but we were really drunk. Later we became the best of friends and he started telling me things like "I don't like guys I just love you" I was so confused because it always felt so natural. He would say that I needed to be patient with him cause he is a jock and he had a reputation to uphold and how it was all new to him. We fought like a couple and talked like a couple everyone at work thought we were together. This led to the next issue. After having admitted to me that he was in-fact bisexual he retracted his statement and told me that he was not bi and that he only saw me as a friend. He even later invited me to visit his family in his hometown. But now he wants to take a "break" for my own good. But the real problem is that I have fallen in love with my best friend. I don't know what to do anymore. We have not talked in a week and I plan on giving him the space he needs. Should I just drop him forever when and if he ever calls me or should I try to see him again. I am so in love with this stupid guy and it sucks. Please help