I am always anxious and depressed around my best friend

I say she isn't a true friend if all she does is judge you. She isn't a mother to worry about your grades, spelling, or driving... or even how often you text someone. I say if she is making your life miserable cut the ties. You will be happier and I'm sure the people around you will be happier. Hang out with your other friends and if she is the only friend you have.. well look at that... Just make new ones. It sounds harsh to hear and i'm sorry for that. But make yourself happy first before some girl you call your bff

I eventually just dumped a similar in male version so called friend. I grew up with this guy but never felt myself around him and he was never much of a friend with his cracks and constant bs. One of his favorites was a good laugh at my expense whenever other people were around .
Good friends are f'n hard to find but I reckon your better of without her and those types, that's not a real friend. You actually sound way too good for her to be honest .
Besides,we're meant to feel comfortable, confident, self assured, understood, in our friendships- hu probably why I don't have many. I really admire/envy other people who just seem to have that with their friends .

I agree with boy racer 100%. Sounds like if she ever comes across acting like a friend it's when it's convenient for her. For her to focus on you and your life's decisions she does not want to look at her own life. She is not content where her life Is and scared of where she may go. She has to control something because in her own self she feels like everything is out of control. There are plenty of people you will meet and cross paths with who are true friends. Won't judge or criticize if you make a mistake. Can laph when you act retarded or say something beyond stupid. If you feel like you can't be your self or that you are losing your identity trying to be what others want then you will never be happy. It's time to shine that star that burns brightly with in you. The people who see that are worth the worry you show tords your so called best friend. All because you have history does not mean anything if she is not willing to hive you all that you give her. It's time for you to rewrite your history so you are happy in your future.

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shes not a good friend, girl, she uses you to make herself feel better and look better to others

she looks like a champion at mental gymnastics. This world is much much better without such manipulative people. You should gradually stop hanging out with her while making some new friends parallelly.

Are you sure this person is your "best friend" or even a friend to begin with? Sounds more like a frienemy if anything. It is nice to hear that your family and boyfriend are positives in your life; that they bring you up instead of put you down. I definitely think you should try making new friends or hanging around people with more thoughtful tendencies, whose interests matches yours. I guess some tips I would give for this is to mainly be yourself. Do things you like to do. If you like sports join a club, practice at a local park or gym where others will be around. If you like helping people you can volunteer, you'll meet lots of great people volunteering and you'll be doing something uplifting yourself, plus Volunteers tend to be a little more considerate then your previous best friend. You can do some classes in your interest like scrap booking, cooking, decorating, reading groups...most important though is to be yourself, be relaxed (by remembering that there are lots of people just like you who put on a brave front), smile when you meet people, tell yourself you feel confident even if you don't. Sometimes just saying it once or twice out loud softly and in your head, will actually make you act more confident or will get you in the habit of thinking confidently. I hope you start feeling better about yourself and realize that your best friend is someone who loves you, supports you and helps you be the best you can be, and you the same for them! Good luck, I wish the best!