That was the best answer I've gotten. And I do see that this path is destructive and that it's unhealthy. That's why I want to stop. I just asked the "if I stop will I not be a slut anymore?" Because one time I tried to stop but this girl who meant the world to me thinks I am and she told me I'm worthless and will tell that same thing to anyone who brings me up to her.
I talked to my school counsler today and she helped alot. She knows me well and knows I'm not a bad person. That I care about people's feelings and that I love life and want to be happy and to share the love so to speak. It's just that part of me feels suffocated because others convince others and even myself that I am the biggest whore at the school and I'm disgusting. Again thank you for your input.
I don't think being good or bad as a person has anything to do with it. I think there are circumstances that left you...for lack of a better way to put it, empty. The sex was just an attempt at trying to feel something. There is a separation, at least for me, between the person in general, and the person in the bedroom. In 14 years of knowing about sex, I've had 3 bjs, 2 hj, anal with a guy once, anal with a girl once, and one regular vaginal (and honestly none were anything to brag about). So I don't take sex with people very lightly. Usually for me, once I get comfy with someone to do it, it is already to late and they are talking to some other guy. You are the opposite of that. But that doesn't detract from you as an actual person.
I mean, you came here looking for someone to talk to, and that is the first step in a potentially long journey. I'm truly sorry for what happened. I'm glad that you can talk about it. It was indeed horrible what happened to you, and I'm happy that you are wanting to start to change. You really haven't done anything that wrong. I have two female friends, one is at 70 men, and the other lost count over 110. You aren't nearly to those numbers.
just don't listen tot he negativity. You've had enough negative stuff happen in your life. Besides, you seem pretty cool to me. At least thats the feeling i get. I think its because you want to change.
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That was the best answer I've gotten. And I do see that this path is destructive and that it's unhealthy. That's why I want to stop. I just asked the "if I stop will I not be a slut anymore?" Because one time I tried to stop but this girl who meant the world to me thinks I am and she told me I'm worthless and will tell that same thing to anyone who brings me up to her.
I talked to my school counsler today and she helped alot. She knows me well and knows I'm not a bad person. That I care about people's feelings and that I love life and want to be happy and to share the love so to speak. It's just that part of me feels suffocated because others convince others and even myself that I am the biggest whore at the school and I'm disgusting. Again thank you for your input.
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I don't think being good or bad as a person has anything to do with it. I think there are circumstances that left you...for lack of a better way to put it, empty. The sex was just an attempt at trying to feel something. There is a separation, at least for me, between the person in general, and the person in the bedroom. In 14 years of knowing about sex, I've had 3 bjs, 2 hj, anal with a guy once, anal with a girl once, and one regular vaginal (and honestly none were anything to brag about). So I don't take sex with people very lightly. Usually for me, once I get comfy with someone to do it, it is already to late and they are talking to some other guy. You are the opposite of that. But that doesn't detract from you as an actual person.
I mean, you came here looking for someone to talk to, and that is the first step in a potentially long journey. I'm truly sorry for what happened. I'm glad that you can talk about it. It was indeed horrible what happened to you, and I'm happy that you are wanting to start to change. You really haven't done anything that wrong. I have two female friends, one is at 70 men, and the other lost count over 110. You aren't nearly to those numbers.
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Wow... That's alot of guys... And I know what you mean. As soon as I get comfortable with a person and trust them they split an talk to another girl.
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just don't listen tot he negativity. You've had enough negative stuff happen in your life. Besides, you seem pretty cool to me. At least thats the feeling i get. I think its because you want to change.
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Yeah I really need to shut out all negative word because that makes it worse for me. And thank you :)