I am a pedophile. Do you hate me?

Tried it. I am in a rural area. I have to travel far to get any kind of therapy. I confessed my desires to a therapist. She had me see a psychiatrist within her group. He gave me a test to see if I would harm anyone. Then handed me back to my therapist. Our sessions basically came down to the following. "Have you touched a child?" "No?" I replied. "Have you had any thoughts about touching any children, because if you do I have to report that." "No." I replied (A lie). At that point it became obvious that this subject agitated her, and she wished I would go away. But she was forced to deal with me as part of her job. She was not a trained professional. She was a social worker who attended a few therapy classes. The psychiatrist who I should have been dealing with didn't want anything to do with me. Instead he continued to refer me back to the therapist.