Thanks for taking the time to comment. I got extensive psych counselling after my friends suicide, I practise meditation and light candies at night and always make time to wind down. Sarah Blondin is one of my favourites.
You’re right too, about depression. People always talk about exercise being pivotal in battling it, but I remember back in 2013 going on a cycle trip in europe where I cycled down Germany into the Czech Republic, 1600km. I returned from that trip the most depressed I’ve ever been. That’s just the thing, I’ve known depression in my life before but this is a different beast, I almost want to die because I’ve been broken and I’ve been fixed, I’ve had incredible happiness and incredible sadness; I’ve been to rock bottom and I’ve realised my dream. It’s this beautiful fucked up mosaic and it just feels time in my mind to let it go, I don’t want it anymore, the good and the bad. It’s just a bittersweet thing, life, and I feel like I’ve lived an eternity already and I’m tired, happy, grateful and ready.
I’m the happiest I’ve been in my life but I’m having thoughts of suicide
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Thanks for taking the time to comment. I got extensive psych counselling after my friends suicide, I practise meditation and light candies at night and always make time to wind down. Sarah Blondin is one of my favourites.
You’re right too, about depression. People always talk about exercise being pivotal in battling it, but I remember back in 2013 going on a cycle trip in europe where I cycled down Germany into the Czech Republic, 1600km. I returned from that trip the most depressed I’ve ever been. That’s just the thing, I’ve known depression in my life before but this is a different beast, I almost want to die because I’ve been broken and I’ve been fixed, I’ve had incredible happiness and incredible sadness; I’ve been to rock bottom and I’ve realised my dream. It’s this beautiful fucked up mosaic and it just feels time in my mind to let it go, I don’t want it anymore, the good and the bad. It’s just a bittersweet thing, life, and I feel like I’ve lived an eternity already and I’m tired, happy, grateful and ready.