Sometimes I feel so stupid and incompetent because I did badly in school and college. I fully believed as fact that getting good grades and getting into a good college was the singlemost important thing in anyone's life, and that only the smart worthy valuable people succeed. So it really formed my opinion of myself as completely fucking stupid and worthless when I did badly in school and got into a shit college. And then again when I failed college too, I seriously considered suicide after that. Even now a decade later I suffer from that belief to some extent and get depressed for days at a time thinking about it.
Honestly though in terms of school/college intelligence, I am stupid. That kind of intelligence is based on discipline, persistence and memory. I have none of that. But a computer (like the Watson computer) could easily score 100% in those tests, even though the most powerful supercomputers today don't even have the intelligence of an insect.
So other times I do feel smart. I am good at analysing situations quicker than most and coming up with clever solutions. I also think outside the box and see things others would have missed. I also like to think deeply about things.
And then I also like to study up on different things that I'm interested in, and so I have gained some knowledge over the years. The only reason I do that though is because I find it all interesting and so it isn't a chore to learn. But being interested in learning isn't really the same as intelligence, I am otherwise a slow learner tbh and have a poor memory. Anyone else who took the initiative to learn it would probably be much quicker than me. Still though it is something else I'm proud of.
How would you rate your intelligence?
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Sometimes I feel so stupid and incompetent because I did badly in school and college. I fully believed as fact that getting good grades and getting into a good college was the singlemost important thing in anyone's life, and that only the smart worthy valuable people succeed. So it really formed my opinion of myself as completely fucking stupid and worthless when I did badly in school and got into a shit college. And then again when I failed college too, I seriously considered suicide after that. Even now a decade later I suffer from that belief to some extent and get depressed for days at a time thinking about it.
Honestly though in terms of school/college intelligence, I am stupid. That kind of intelligence is based on discipline, persistence and memory. I have none of that. But a computer (like the Watson computer) could easily score 100% in those tests, even though the most powerful supercomputers today don't even have the intelligence of an insect.
So other times I do feel smart. I am good at analysing situations quicker than most and coming up with clever solutions. I also think outside the box and see things others would have missed. I also like to think deeply about things.
And then I also like to study up on different things that I'm interested in, and so I have gained some knowledge over the years. The only reason I do that though is because I find it all interesting and so it isn't a chore to learn. But being interested in learning isn't really the same as intelligence, I am otherwise a slow learner tbh and have a poor memory. Anyone else who took the initiative to learn it would probably be much quicker than me. Still though it is something else I'm proud of.