How weird is this?
When I was a teenager I got high on weed and beer with my older sister. This was in my bedroom one night when our parents were out late. We got into this heated talk about sex and then we ended up doing the actual deed. We swore each other to secrecy and as far as I know not a single soul has ever found out about it. That was 35 years ago. I divorced my wife a few months ago and ever since we've been separated I've been inclined to jerk-off a few nights a week. For some reason, that sexual incident with my sister all those years ago has become a prominent porn DVD that plays in my head. Is it normal to be turned on by something so sick and shameful in one's past as to give one this incredible sexual arousal? I still see my sis occasionally and I am not sexually aroused by her in the least. But I persist in bringing up this memory of the two of us, stoned out of our minds, having some pretty intense sex. By the way, I remembered to wear a condom that night. Maybe sex between brother and sister happens often enough that it is normal. WTF?