How normal is it to want a transgender girlfriend?

I don't like the personalities of women, but I'm sexually attracted to them. If I could have a girlfriend with the personality of a man (but who still had an outward personality of a woman), a girly face, and a slim, mostly feminine body (penis is ok, small breasts/butt is ok, but otherwise girly body), I would be able to experience what true love is like. I honestly don't feel like I could ever love a woman. A woman could only fulfill my sexual desires. A woman could never be a life partner to me, who would both fill my sexual desires and friendship desires. Only a transgender woman could do that.

I know this is highly unlikely to ever happen for me because there's such a small quantity of passable transgender women, and even if you were to meet a passable transgender women, it would be impossible to tell she was transgender because most keep it private unless they're social media sluts, and I wouldn't want to date a social media slut anyways. I'm also assuming the demand far outweighs the supply, but that's just an assumption, so I'm wondering if it's normal to want a girl(boy) like this, or if they're in low demand and thus more easily obtainable.