How i knew i was submissive
when I was 20 years old, my apartment was destoryed in a fire. My boss offered me to live with his family until I got back on my feet. He and his wife had 3 kids, all much younger then me. I had been there for 3 months and observed how his wife was with their kids. She was very strict.
One week he was out of town on business and instead of coming home after work I went to the bar with some co-workers. I left the bar drunk and drove home. I didnt make it in the house before I threw up all over the front porch. I finally made it to bed. The next morning she saw the mess and was not happy. After getting her kids off to school she got me out of bed.
She showed me the mess I made and really yelled at me for drinking n driving, throwing up and the noise I made when I came in the house.
She told me I would have to move when my boss got back. I begged her not to kick me out. She told me I was no different then her children very inmature.
She had me go take a shower an get out of my puke stained clothes. I was showering when she came in the bathroom and told me that she had a soluotion to my problem. She said to get out of the shower and there she was holding the paddle she used on her kids. I couldnt beleive she wanted to spank me. And asked if she was serious. She said, if I wanted to stay there, yes she was serious.
I agreeed, and she gave me the spanking of my life right there in the bathroom. She didnt even allow me time to dry off.
She gave me rules to follow for then on. Curfew times, bedtime, showertime everything. She also told me that I would adress her as Maam whenever she told me to do something. This went on for a month and one night after the kids had gone to bed and just before my bedtime, she made me rub her feet. So until I moved, I was treated both as child and her submissive. I was so glad that my boss spent 2 weeks a month traveling for work. To this day, I have the need to be spanked when I have been bad. And I love sucking on an massaging womens feet. IS THIS NORMAL?