How far is too far?

Hi,

I'm 20 years old, and I'm not new to relationship scenario. I know what love is I have felt it before, but what I feel now I can't be sure of, because it sure as hell can't be love when it feels 100 times greater.
My story is simple and sweet, just like the girl in it. I feel in love head over heels. We meet as friends first day when I moved to my new school and we were good friends for a long time after. We started dated during senior year at high school up until two months ago, meaning I have known her for over 6 years and have dated for just over 2 and half. In the time frame we didn’t date I saw other girls, feel in love too but she was always remained one of my closet friends. The relationship was perfection, not one upset, not one tear shed. We grew not only as a couple but even closer as friends, well more precisely the best friends that we’d always wanted growing up. Of course happiness turned to tragedy and she told me one day that she couldn’t do it anymore. My heart was broken which isn’t anything uncommon. I did all the normal things to do, I packed up all our things, put pictures away, deleted e-mails, deleted facebook, basically everything that needed to be done to move on.

Here I am though still, just like every other day thinking about her constantly, not wanting to forget the look of her face, or the sound of her voice. It’s like there is this feeling or voice inside that tells me every time I take a step toward pursuing something new that I’m told I’m not supposed too. That everything I do is supposed to be shared with her. She’s the friend that you never want to see go, the person that no matter what happened you wouldn’t look any differently into their eyes and love them any less. Am I wrong for wanting to jump out of my skin and race to the end of the earth to just merely take her by hand and guide her back to the world that is so much more beautiful with her in it? Can I? How far can a person go if they truly believe in something?

It’s like there is this gut feeling that tells me that this isn’t right. It’s a feeling like I’m about to let slip away the best friend and lover that I was meant to find, and I don’t want to have too forget.