How do i stop trying to read peoples minds
I have anxiety and I need full control over everything and everyone 24/7. I didnt know this myself but i've had it pointed out. I wont do anything if I dont to at least 90% certainty know the precise outcome and the fact that I wont get hurt or die and I wont contact or talk to someone unless I know with at least 90% certainty that they wont think i'm dumb, desperate, clingy, weird, annoying or pathetic.
I have sat for a very long time trying to decide if I can contact a person I stopped talking to a few months ago because we got into a bad period between us and argued a lot but i've wanted to clear things but ive been busy trying to figure out if it's possible he will find me pathetic I need my image to be free of that.
I'm always trying to stay away from such labels to any means necessary by carefully constructing everything I say. It has worked well so far. People think i'm detached but at least they dont think i'm pathetic and clingy.
I have sent a friend request to this person I need to speak to to see if we can clear things up but immadiately afterwards I logged off. He better not think anything negative about it or i'll have to take weeks to get over it and work on being more detached.
I cant believe he might have seen the request and is sitting RIGHT NOW thinking that I care. That might make him feel important and I ABSOLUTELY cannot have that I cant feed his ego he might think he has power over me then and I need the upper power. Yes its pretty messedd up probably and ive lost people from my life due to it but at least no one thinks I care too much and are pathetic.