How can i tell my dad?
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Five months ago, I started talking with a boy from my school. He was really nice and we got along. After hanging out for about a week, I asked my dad if he could come over to our house. He let him, but afterwards said he didn't want him coming over again. I asked him why and he just told me that he didn't like him. I got mad and argued with him, but it didn't change anything.
Even though my dad didn't want me to, I kept hanging out with him. We went on a few dates and things were good. One day I told my dad that I was going to go to the movies with one of my other friends. We went and saw it, and things were going fine, but on the pulled over and started getting forceful.
I had never thought something like that would ever happen to me. I knew that it could, but it always seemed distant, so I didn't worry. He beat me and used me till he was done. He threatened to kill me if I told anyone. I'm scared at school all the time now, and I don't think anyone would even believe me if I told them. My dad was right, and I don't know how to tell him I was raped.
I feel like everyone I look at now can tell, like I'm tainted. I want to die, I feel disgusting.People can tell something's wrong. Especially my dad, but I just don't want them to know. I just want to curl up forever. I feel so filthy. I don't know what to do.