Hide my real feelings all the time?

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Whenever I'm out in public or with friends or family I act like this happy, got their shit together kind of person. I'm basically a clown. I'm always goofing off making others laugh but I'm actually so depressed when I'm alone. I don't want people to see what I become once I'm in the comforts of my own home.
I can't even cry in public or show any sort of emotions because I've gotten so used to not showing any at all. Sometimes I feel really numb when I'm with friends and I'll end up just zoning out but as soon as they pay attention to me its back to being a heartless douchebag. Is this normal? or am I some sort of sociopath?

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  • Tommythecaty
    2 years ago

    That’s more common in people than you think. Most of us have a mask for showing the public/people in general. Our standards of behaviour are agreed upon but we are all individual, so we must mask that which is in conflict with the standards. There’s nothing wrong with doing so as we need those guidelines to function somewhat harmoniously.

    No, a sociopath/psychopath/antisocial is a whole bunch of unpleasant traits. Traits that very few people possess in that quantity. Conduct disorder, fraudulence, recurrent fights, parasitic lifestyles, promiscuity, irresponsibility, glibness, acting out to relieve boredom, remorselessness, short fuse and so on. General assholery...

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  • litelander8
    2 years ago

    This is me, always.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      2 years ago

      Good to know I'm not the only one

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  • Faceless
    2 years ago

    “...there is an idea of a Patrick Bateman, some kind of abstraction, but there is no real me, only an entity, something illusory, and though I can hide my cold gaze and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable: I simply am not there.”

    heh just kidders

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  • ellnell
    2 years ago

    That's pretty common.
    And no you're not a sociopath. If you were you wouldn't be having any real emotions to hide.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      2 years ago

      I figured I wasn't but sometimes I feel like I am due to my lack of emotions in front of other people

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