I currently have anorexia. The doctor diagnosed it under the criteria of the way I was losing weight, how/why I wanted to lose it, and the speed and amount at which I was losing weight. Which I guess was pretty rapid (for a total of 38 pounds). My cousin also has anorexia, and her doctor diagnosed it because she was underweight but still actively trying to lose more.
I think one of the weird things about anorexia is that most people assume that since you want to be skinny, you want everyone else to be skinny too, but that's not the case. I think everyone else is beautiful and I don't judge others on looks, but I judge myself quite harshly.
My feelings about food, you ask? I don't think food is "evil", or "bad", I think it's bad when I eat though. I don't like consuming calories and if I do, I immediately feel extreme guilt. I try to not eat as much as possible, and only eat when I'm needing electrolytes. I mean, its not the whole story but it's not really the food itself that I hate, it's the feelings that come with eating.
Have you or someone you're very close to ever had an eating disorder?
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I currently have anorexia. The doctor diagnosed it under the criteria of the way I was losing weight, how/why I wanted to lose it, and the speed and amount at which I was losing weight. Which I guess was pretty rapid (for a total of 38 pounds). My cousin also has anorexia, and her doctor diagnosed it because she was underweight but still actively trying to lose more.
I think one of the weird things about anorexia is that most people assume that since you want to be skinny, you want everyone else to be skinny too, but that's not the case. I think everyone else is beautiful and I don't judge others on looks, but I judge myself quite harshly.
My feelings about food, you ask? I don't think food is "evil", or "bad", I think it's bad when I eat though. I don't like consuming calories and if I do, I immediately feel extreme guilt. I try to not eat as much as possible, and only eat when I'm needing electrolytes. I mean, its not the whole story but it's not really the food itself that I hate, it's the feelings that come with eating.