I was anorexic for 3 years and it was pure hell. I had to go and see a psychiatrist. Was threatened countless times to be hospitalised. Got told I have ruined my body and may not be able to reproduce in the future. Got heart problems. Got kidney problems. Was the talk of the school. My body was disgustingly skinny because I dropped to size 0 at one point. Was depressed and thought about suicide a lot. Threw tantrums. Smashed up my house a few times. Lost friends. Lost a boyfriend. Lost the trust of my family members. My mum constantly cried because she thought I was going to kill myself. Was scared I was going to die. Got bruises from just lying down.
I can't really remember much from that period of my life time. I've blocked most of it now but even writing it now really upsets me. I just don't know why I did it or how it happened. It got way out of control and regret every bit of it. I should have been happy, having fun with friends etc.
Have you or someone you're very close to ever had an eating disorder?
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I was anorexic for 3 years and it was pure hell. I had to go and see a psychiatrist. Was threatened countless times to be hospitalised. Got told I have ruined my body and may not be able to reproduce in the future. Got heart problems. Got kidney problems. Was the talk of the school. My body was disgustingly skinny because I dropped to size 0 at one point. Was depressed and thought about suicide a lot. Threw tantrums. Smashed up my house a few times. Lost friends. Lost a boyfriend. Lost the trust of my family members. My mum constantly cried because she thought I was going to kill myself. Was scared I was going to die. Got bruises from just lying down.
I can't really remember much from that period of my life time. I've blocked most of it now but even writing it now really upsets me. I just don't know why I did it or how it happened. It got way out of control and regret every bit of it. I should have been happy, having fun with friends etc.