Have i overcome my suicidal thoughts permanently?

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I felt suicidal for most of my life. It all started when I was 15. I was bullied in school for being black, and I always felt rejected by society because of my skin colour. Things over here aren't like in America, Italy is a very white country, not all Italians are blonde with blue eyes and '' stereotipically white '', but all of them are racially white. Very very few Italians are of Asian or black ancestry, so, while in America and in the U.K black people can blend in with their community, black people in Italy are '' alone ''.
A few weeks ago I was going to kill myself when I watched a video on Youtube about a suicide case, well, I saw a picture ( fake picture ) of a man jumping off a bridge, and it made me feel anxious as it could've been me. I realised that I want to live, I wanted to keep on hanging out with my friends, playing football, videogames etc. yes I'm black and I feel rejected by society, but I can simply stop caring and start focusing on my friends.

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  • JonathanOo
    6 years ago

    You may have overcome your thoughts for now but in the future if rough times come up again you'll have to stay strong. Don't give in to peer pressure and bullying. Try to stay above it and make strong friendships

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  • redrainbow22
    6 years ago

    Race doesnt matter. Most people wont care about your skin color. Its your own anxiety and paranoia about being a different skin color.

    But like I said most people wont care :) It doesnt matter what race you are.

    As long as your a decent human being.

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  • HImynamesidk
    6 years ago

    You were born for a reason, i know society sucks i know this is the lamest piece of advice but ignore it. Please dont do anything to yourself.You're not alone try not to let it get to you. your life is important. Please tell someone or call up a help line

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