Hate me!!!!

its not uncommon. You need more activities or hobbies. Accomplishments give you courage and self esteem. Do something to be proud of!

This is quite a sad tale, and I suggest seeing someone. Yes, expensive counselling.

Why don't you want counselling? Don't you think you need it?

First off, this is very normal to me. I know no one else can ever understand you completely, but I've been in the same place your at right now.

I went to a school where it was normal for most girls to have sex by the time they were 16 and a baby by the time they were 17. It's a shame, but that's the type of world we live in. Don't worry about giving up your virginity too soon. When it happens, just make sure of these things. One, you%%u2019re doing it because you want to and NOT because someone else wants you to. Two, your giving it to someone special, not someone 15 years later you%%u2019re going to regret or wish you had saved for your first real love. And Three, that your comfortable with giving up your virginity because, once it's gone, it's gone. So choose wisely but also with your heart.

Now the hating yourself and thinking negatively about your life, that will ease with time as you get out of the ditch you%%u2019re stuck in. If you%%u2019re wondering why you feel like this all the time, get a pen and paper and right down all the things you hate about yourself and your life and find positive HEALTHY solutions to fixing them. Some of them make take time, so don't get frustrated when they don't happen right away. Your young and you have your whole life ahead of you.

Next issue your mom. Girls always have this middle stage in their stage in their life where I would like to call "Lost in Translation". It's when the mom and the daughter feel like the other one is speaking a different language and this is pushing you guys apart. Parents like to say "it's a just a phase or high school isn't that hard" But it has changed over the years. The drug pressure, the wanting to feel accepted yet the constant need to be unique. It's confusing and hard. Try and relate the difference between when your mom went to school and how it is for you. Explain this to her. Tell her about the difficulties you%%u2019re facing because even though she's not you, she's had an experience like yours that could possibly aid you.

Other than all that, take it one day at time while trying to enjoy life, not regret it.
Let me know how it's going for you. Keep me up to date and have a lovely day.

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wow, thats me in every way

i am exactly the same way...so glad im not alone

its normal to the teens lyk u to think dt they r losers..im suggesting u 2 talk to one of ur friends who do u think u can trust..tell him/her all ur problems and eventually ur feelings will be lighter to carry..