Well, I don't know what I'd be like if I didn't find IIN, so I really don't know. I definitely feel like it's had a positive impact:)
I get to talk about things on here that I don't get the opportunity to talk about in real life, so I think it's good that I have that. I'm sure that a lot of my opinions have developed over my time here, partly because I get to see other people's perspective and because some questions make me have a serious think about what I believe, also a positive:).
However, due to a couple of comments I've recieved since I came back from several different users, I seem to have changed more when I was away from this place. It wasn't an obvious change to me, but I'm under the impression that it was more obvious to people who knew me before and after. I really do wonder if that is the case. Therefore, maybe IIN is preventing me from growing, it sure doesn't feel like it:S.
Also, although I'm a complete coward, being here has made me less of one. I feel stupid for feeling like this, but I'm actually still really proud that I posted my voice. I didn't think I would be able to share something about myself which is actually me, not bananaface. That sounds terrible and like bananaface is some sort of act, it isn't, it's me. It's hard to explain. But quite a few posts have made me share things which made me feel vulnerable, but meant that I wasn't being a coward, like how I recently posted exactly what I was thinking on the "Free Thinking" post.
Wow, sorry for how long this is. I think I've decided that positive is the answer. Although I haven't mentioned it, the main reason would probably be because of the people here, who just make IIN a really great community to be a part of (the community part is another positive:D!). I love, love, love some of the people here...even the evil ones>;D!
You know, whenever I read the quote on the homepage of the site, I think about how I interact with the site, the stories I share (even the embarrassing ones that make me look stupid). I think about how open I leave myself sometimes (the voice post and the free thinking are good examples). But I think that's what TheManagement wanted. I think that's why the quote is there.
I know plenty on the site have insecurities. Me too. I often display mine, so at least I can say I'm aware of them. Some people might hide behind theirs though, and even start snarling or biting, a less pleasant display of their insecurity. We can all pretend to be a boss; it doesn't make us a boss.
I know that you wavered on the voice (so did dom and I), and I wavered momentarily on the free thinking, but you did it. It takes a bit of bravery to put yourself up as a target to be shot at. You'll notice most of the people who like doing the shooting don't have the bravery to show themselves as a target.
Before normal "evil" service is resumed, I just wanted to say that I'm really very proud of you. Both of you. :)
It sounds like I have split personality disorder or something, haha:P. But seriously, thank you, that actually really means a lot to me for you to say that:). I don't know if I've said it before, although I feel like I've made it pretty obvious, but I really value your opinion.
And I never really appreciated the quote until the voice experiment thing. Partly because that was the one I recorded so I had to read and pay attention to it, but mainly because I could actually relate to it.
In my mind I'm more open here than a few weeks ago, so hopefully I won't be doing any snarling or biting...as fun as it sounds:P!
Has IIN had a positive or negative impact on your life?
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Well, I don't know what I'd be like if I didn't find IIN, so I really don't know. I definitely feel like it's had a positive impact:)
I get to talk about things on here that I don't get the opportunity to talk about in real life, so I think it's good that I have that. I'm sure that a lot of my opinions have developed over my time here, partly because I get to see other people's perspective and because some questions make me have a serious think about what I believe, also a positive:).
However, due to a couple of comments I've recieved since I came back from several different users, I seem to have changed more when I was away from this place. It wasn't an obvious change to me, but I'm under the impression that it was more obvious to people who knew me before and after. I really do wonder if that is the case. Therefore, maybe IIN is preventing me from growing, it sure doesn't feel like it:S.
Also, although I'm a complete coward, being here has made me less of one. I feel stupid for feeling like this, but I'm actually still really proud that I posted my voice. I didn't think I would be able to share something about myself which is actually me, not bananaface. That sounds terrible and like bananaface is some sort of act, it isn't, it's me. It's hard to explain. But quite a few posts have made me share things which made me feel vulnerable, but meant that I wasn't being a coward, like how I recently posted exactly what I was thinking on the "Free Thinking" post.
Wow, sorry for how long this is. I think I've decided that positive is the answer. Although I haven't mentioned it, the main reason would probably be because of the people here, who just make IIN a really great community to be a part of (the community part is another positive:D!). I love, love, love some of the people here...even the evil ones>;D!
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You know, whenever I read the quote on the homepage of the site, I think about how I interact with the site, the stories I share (even the embarrassing ones that make me look stupid). I think about how open I leave myself sometimes (the voice post and the free thinking are good examples). But I think that's what TheManagement wanted. I think that's why the quote is there.
I know plenty on the site have insecurities. Me too. I often display mine, so at least I can say I'm aware of them. Some people might hide behind theirs though, and even start snarling or biting, a less pleasant display of their insecurity. We can all pretend to be a boss; it doesn't make us a boss.
I know that you wavered on the voice (so did dom and I), and I wavered momentarily on the free thinking, but you did it. It takes a bit of bravery to put yourself up as a target to be shot at. You'll notice most of the people who like doing the shooting don't have the bravery to show themselves as a target.
Before normal "evil" service is resumed, I just wanted to say that I'm really very proud of you. Both of you. :)
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It sounds like I have split personality disorder or something, haha:P. But seriously, thank you, that actually really means a lot to me for you to say that:). I don't know if I've said it before, although I feel like I've made it pretty obvious, but I really value your opinion.
And I never really appreciated the quote until the voice experiment thing. Partly because that was the one I recorded so I had to read and pay attention to it, but mainly because I could actually relate to it.
In my mind I'm more open here than a few weeks ago, so hopefully I won't be doing any snarling or biting...as fun as it sounds:P!