Guy, masturbate to own mom, think i may be gay too

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It started when i was 14 or so...shes just so fucking hot and dresses like a hoe all the time. I try to suppress this but my OCD won't let me. I masturbate to a porno and I accidentally think "oh cool, im not fapping to my mom, thank god im dont have to feel guilty anymore" but as i remember that, i also remember my mom and then cant get rid of her picture in my mind, i quickly fap to her in 3 seconds i cum and as i cum i think of someone else so i can live in denial that I didn't fap to her. Whats also interesting is that im lately thinking i might be gay lol, although this can be caused by OCD aswell, its SO-OCD. I had kind of a bromance with a very cool guy, he fucked so many girls and did cocaine, he was basically my idol. Eventually he came out as bisexual... I couldn't help but ask myself "what if im gay too? What if it's a romance, not a bromance?" I constantly imagine myself in a scenario where i have sex with him just to confirm im dont like that but I still cant get it off my mind. My sex drive for my mom has dropped since then (the gay part of this story started 3 days ago). I masturbate to straight porn and then suddenly i get a flash of gay porn in my mind and i get turned off. But its creepy that sometimes (rare) i get turned on by that. I was diagnosed with OCD and anxiety too. I'm turning 17 in December. I was visiting a psychiatric for the last 3 months for my anxiety and ocd, for obsessive thoughts like "am in a coma right now and this world is fake? What if im suicidal but i dont know that? What if i have schizophrenia? What if i have cancer?" Shitt sorry i just threw in a lot of stuff, my life is fucked up.

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  • orgasmio7
    8 years ago

    It is VERY normal to want to fuck your mum.

    Try flirting with her, you may find that she secretly wants to fuck you also.

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    • Imablackguy
      8 years ago

      whats bothering me the past few days is the gay part, im so freaked out that i might be gay but im so wildly attracted to my mom. My sex drive has dropped a bit tho since 2 days ago, i cant masturbate with the thought of being gay is possible

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  • sexysonofsam
    8 years ago

    I think that you think too much, just take out your dick, visualize my naked arse and masturbate...you may even cum on me

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    • Imablackguy
      8 years ago

      Are you a girl?

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      • sexysonofsam
        8 years ago

        No I am a Man!

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  • rlt152
    7 years ago

    I jack off to my mom sometimes, I don't really feel any guilt in doing so and don't consider myself to be gay in the slightest

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  • TheWrinklySailor
    8 years ago

    This doesn't sound like a question of latent homosexuality or attraction to your mom (which is creepy, btw), it just sounds like a symptom of your OCD. You're having classic intrusive thoughts..."don't think this, don't think this...oh shit I'm thinking this." It sounds like you've been properly diagnosed with OCD, which means you've probably seen a therapist. Maybe you have coping mechanisms or some type of behavioral therapy trick to deal with uncomfortable intrusive thoughts? If not, perhaps you could ask your doctor.

    In the mean time, I wouldn't worry so much about the idea if being gay, especially since you seem to be "turned off" whenever your mind goes to thoughts of gay porn or gay sex. It's sounds like it's 100% your OCD...but seriously, stop wanking to your mom : |

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