Guilt/shame over experimenting with sexuality

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So the other day I was watching my neighbors cat when I came across some cool stuff; weed stems and pipes and whatnot. Curious, I continued to look to see if he had any weed and came across a dildo. For various reasons, including being bullied and called "gay" by kids for wearing skinny jeans and being molested as a child, I wondered if, perhaps, I might be gay.
No offense to any homosexuals or people who identify with it (I cannot stress that enough) but whenever I think that I might be gay or bi or something, I always get a bit anxious. Again, I do not mean to offend anyone.
So I decided to use the dildo and holy shit it hurt so bad. It seriously felt like my asshole was being torn from the inside and it hurt bad.
Besides a painful butthole for a few minutes afterwards, I've been having feelings of guilt, shame and anxiety ever since. The anxiety is from me worrying if I'm gay or bi and I don't know about the guilt and shame.
So this question is for anybody who's experienced something similar; Is this normal?

Is It Normal?
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  • Shoefish
    9 years ago | pl

    The problem here should be that you stuck SOMEONE ELSE'S DILDO in your butt.

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  • Bethina
    9 years ago | pl

    I spent 3 or so years feeling ashamed of being Bisexual and did my best to hide it from my family. I'd watch/read les and bi porn at night, and have secret girl friends. I've opened up to my friends, but my family still doesn't know. I know they wouldn't like it.

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  • CoraCook
    9 years ago | pl

    You are bianxious!

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  • VirgilManly
    9 years ago | pl

    Enjoying or not enjoying anal stimulation doesn't mean you're gay. There are straight men who like it and gay men who don't.
    Falling in love with other guys would mean you're gay.

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  • GreyWulfen
    9 years ago | pl

    First of all, experimenting is never a bad thing - it's a good way to learn about yourself and your preferences. And second, there is nothing 'gay' about having or using a dildo, straight men can enjoy anal stimulation as well.
    Also, it is normal that anal penetration hurts on the first few tries. It's something that needs practice.

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  • Gspyder
    9 years ago | pl

    You're only gay if you find yourself attracted to men. Enjoying having things in your butt doesn't necessarily make you gay. And there is nothing wrong with either of those things. You are just unsure of what you like at this point and hey, the only way to find out for sure is to be open and try things. There is nothing to be ashamed of.

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  • catsofharmony
    9 years ago | pl

    Um ok

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