Going from one extreme to another and other stuff

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Not so long ago, I was on the verge of being obsessed over my friend. I've known her for more than 7 years, so we're kind of close. I have this thing with getting close to people though. I get too attached and - I know this sounds crazy, but these attachment/abandonment issues have really contributed to my depression. It's happened with so many people in the past. I'd get very messed up - not because of anything that they may have done, but because of my own irrationality and craziness. I keep this all to myself and try to put out a face of mormality because I don't want people to think that I'm a freak.

Well, I'd become sick of all this, so I've cut down my contact with others. I hardly speak to anyone now, even on the internet. I don't participate in any forums anymore. Now, at last, I'm finally peaceful. Sort of.

It's just started to bug me that after not seeing or talking to the aforementioned friend for a while (last time I had any contact with her was at the beginning of december), I feel a little bit indifferent. I still see her as a friend, but I just don't care anymore. Before, I would have jumped at a chance to see or talk with her, but now, it's almost as though I can't be bothered. That sounds harsh, I know, but I can't help it. I don't like this because it feels as though I've gone from one extreme to another. It makes me feel very lonely.

Is it normal to be like this?

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  • rahfluffzi
    12 years ago

    This sounds like me...
    I might not say it is normal, but you're definitely not alone. ;)

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  • omaclean
    13 years ago

    Had the same thing, kinda. You just need to find someone you actually do care about, and then you realise that the feelings before didn't really mean much, but you hadn't experienced anything more. so it felt important. Go get your dick/ vagina wet.

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  • [Old Memory]
    14 years ago

    OK - so you're a little complex. Does that really matter? If you know that about yourself, then do what you need to to have your own space.

    But it is not an either/or proposition. You can have your own personal time AND be respectful to people who care about you, like your friends.

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  • ihopeyoudie
    14 years ago

    yes. despite what people say. i dont know how old you are but im 24 and ive been the same way my whole life. doctors prescribe shitty pills and people are all the same. its a curse and a blessing of emotional capacity. i dont have an answer yet. but i suggest you try art or music. and try to make money at it, then maybe eventually they will respect you.

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    • PoisonFlowers
      14 years ago

      I'm trying music - doubt I'll ever make money out of it, but I don't care. When I'm older, money's talons might start to tear at me though haha.

      It's a little bit comforting to know that I'm not the only one. If only my friends understood my strange ways...

      I'm not feeling the blessing so far. Curse; yes.

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