Going for older men...??/ losing interest?
Im what i consider to be a fairly 'normal' girl whatever that may be. ive been having sex since i was 16 and im now 18, ive havent really found it difficult with guys like getting attention or anything and have probably had quite alot of sex partners for my age but i have a habit of going for older men. . oldest was 33 and at the moment im seeing someone whos 30. im scared to admit it to my friends and have even lied about the age of people im seeing. i have been out with people my age but i like the feeling that an older guy can protect me. Also as soon as i've been with a guy about 3 months max and it starts getting emotional i just seem to switch off my emotions and dump them. My dad died when i was six and ive always wondered whether it might be something to do with why im a bit weird with men. I want to be loved but then as soon as someone tells me he loves me i just reject them. am i just a cold hearted b**ch?? im fed up of hurting people cos i cant seem to control my own feelings. any ideas??