Gay experiences causing extreme stress normal?

Absolutely normal. I had a roommate go down on me when I was sleeping. I was in my early twenties. He was in his forties. It bothered me for a long time that I didn't stop it. I even went through counseling. My counselor asked me one question. Did you get an erection? I had a difficult time with that. But the reason I didn't stop what happened is because it felt good.

Give your life to Jesus, man. He heals all things if you let him.

Every one does stupid crap when they're in their teens or twinties. And alot of them are things that we never want to do or think about agian.
Experimentation is a normal part of finding one's self. You may have some demons to face as a resalt, but those demons are only as strong as you think they are. Also, it's normal to have suicidal thoughts after tramatic experences (ask a rape victom). Just don't act on them (or the demons will win).

First off, I'm very sorry this happened to you.

What the guy did was wrong, and by no means does it reflect anything about you. It does reflect a lot about him, though.

You know who you are, and you know what you like. You're a straight guy- and that guy took advantage of you when you were in an "incompetent" state (for lack of a better term).

In the date rape article they mentioned that "No means no & as soon as it is said then it's rape" HOWEVER, they didn't say that it's rape/assault if you don't say yes. So, if you never said yes, (EVEN if you didn't say no) it is/was illegal! You were sexually violated and no matter how strong/masculine/secure/etc you are with yourself, you'll need therapy.

And, please, don't commit suicide. What he did to you is not what you chose. (Or, even if you did choose it, it doesn't make you a bad/immoral person!) This site may help if you're still feeling suicidal: http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

I wish you the best of luck, and I can promise you there's a ton of people who would support you through your times of difficulty!

I think you have a few things to sort out, which is entirely natural and nothing to feel embarrassed about. You real need to talk to a professional-- a psychiatrist, psychologist, or a counselor. If you don't have access via a health plan from school or work, google "free counseling services" and your city/area, and you might surprised about the resources.

I think the guy who was 35 when you were a teenager at best took advantage of you unfairly (due to the age difference, your inexperience, and your drinking) and at worst is guilty of statutory rape (depending on your age at the time). That would be a scarring experience for many people.

Next, you have to sort out whether you're gay or not. I am well aware how difficult that is-- I am gay, but did not finally accept that until I was 34! I was so stubborn that I never even fooled around with a guy until that time-- I was determined to make myself straight, which is of course impossible.

No matter whether you are gay or straight, you have to find a way to let go of the guilt (over what you did, and possibly what you may want to do again). A good therapist can help greatly with that process, but in the end you will really have to find a way to accept yourself for who you are and not obsess about the past. Good luck.

I suppose I can say I'm similar... Past experiences have made have gay tendencies also, and I struggle with them. I also think that the stress is completely normal, it's kind of a big deal trying to get rid of a sexual identity that you don't want.

Is it the age thing that bothered you?

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Check out all of the studies done on this topic in some academic journals. Totally normal. Apparently most guys do the same thing. Now wipe your eyes and quit being overly dramatic and ridiculous.

You don't need to consider this as part of your identity if you don't want it to be. Please don't kill yourself. If you start feeling suicidal there's a suicide prevention hotline u can call. someone will help talk you through your issues

You're basing too much of your identity on something that, in all likeliness, happened TO you, and that you probably didn't really want. The stress is normal, but even if you're 100 percent straight, you're going to need to come to terms with your 'homophobia', for lack of a more dignified term.

That sounds to me like molestation, or date rape. Someone who is under the influence of alcohol or another substance doesn't always know what they're doing, and you were also vulnerable because of your age, which your 35 yr old friend knew.

Read here about date rape: http://teenadvice.about.com/od/daterape/a/daterapeguysfyi.htm (the 2nd page of that article addresses date rape when one or more of the people involved is under the influence)

Also keep in mind that the article can apply to men being the victim as well as women, and that you don't have to say "no" for it to be rape if you were intoxicated.

It sounds to me like the "stress" you've been experiencing is part of the trauma that comes with being sexually assaulted. Even if it was just touching or something, that can still mess with your mind a lot because it's not something you would normally have asked for.

Trust me when I say it's better to not deny that this could at least be a possibility. You need to talk to a counselor and work through this issue or it will build up and explode when you least expect it. I know from personal experience how detrimental something like this can be to your health. You need to get help for it before the stress becomes much, much worse.

Also, are you still in contact with the guy that did this to you? That could be aggravating to the healing process. You might want to consider staying away from him, confronting him... whatever you think will give you peace. But don't just stay around him acting like it's okay. As long as you live with fear or shame because of what happened, you are giving him power over you.

just try getting normal girlfriend and talk to her about it first.
Talk about it with a VERY good friend,if you feel like coming out.
Suicide will only cause you lose the oportunity to enjoysuffer at life, but its all life.
Maybe time will hlp.
Hope i helped at least little.