Fetish for being beaten and bruised
I want to be beaten up during sex and I want it to not only be very painful, but I want to be covered in bruises after the person I'm with is done beating me. I really hate myself and I wish every night that I could be beaten so hard by someone who hates me just as much. I feel like suffering for someone can give me a purpose. I love the thought of having bruises litter my body and being in a lot of pain for the next few weeks.