I feel you, a combination of things has made me feel insignificant... But that has changed my life for the better.
The first thing which made me insignificant is the fact that I study mathematical physics at university and my favourite part is cosmology, the whole earth is majorly insignificant and there are so many of us on it!
The second was LSA (similar to LSD, found in certain legal seeds)...
On the drug I realised that before us there are a lot more people who are already dead than are alive right now and the fact that no matter how hard I work in life I will end up in the same place as someone who doesn't.
I contemplated (intellectually) the idea of suicide and how it would mean someone doesn't have to bother with all the hardships in life, and will end up the same as someone who does.
Then I realised:
If I am so ridiculously insignificant and I'm going to die one day no matter what... Then I need to rethink my life and make sure I am doing what I want to do, rather than what society wants me to do.
Therefore I am going to spend the majority of my wages when I finish university... On having fun, exploring new things, visiting the whole world, if I have a great job I will retire at a young age and do whatever I feel like.
Felling insignificant
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I feel you, a combination of things has made me feel insignificant... But that has changed my life for the better.
The first thing which made me insignificant is the fact that I study mathematical physics at university and my favourite part is cosmology, the whole earth is majorly insignificant and there are so many of us on it!
The second was LSA (similar to LSD, found in certain legal seeds)...
On the drug I realised that before us there are a lot more people who are already dead than are alive right now and the fact that no matter how hard I work in life I will end up in the same place as someone who doesn't.
I contemplated (intellectually) the idea of suicide and how it would mean someone doesn't have to bother with all the hardships in life, and will end up the same as someone who does.
Then I realised:
If I am so ridiculously insignificant and I'm going to die one day no matter what... Then I need to rethink my life and make sure I am doing what I want to do, rather than what society wants me to do.
Therefore I am going to spend the majority of my wages when I finish university... On having fun, exploring new things, visiting the whole world, if I have a great job I will retire at a young age and do whatever I feel like.
Good philosophy on life I think.