I know exactly how you feel because I feel the same way. I don't have any solid answers why this happens, but I have a personal theory. I think it might relate somehow to being ambidextrous. I've read that ambidextrous people like me often have the same faculties on both sides of their brain (math, logic, creative, speech), whereas those faculties are separated into different hemispheres of the brain in left and right-handed people. Add that together with a reduced number of connections between the two hemispheres and I think the result is probably what you and I go through- the feeling of being two different people in one, having two inner monologs that can think independent of the other, and even have different desires or be in conflict with each other.
Aside from the frequent discomfort of having occasionally conflicting minds, I actually think it's a gift. Unlike most people, I can do things like talk to a coworker while continuing to type out an email. I can listen keenly to a person on either side of me saying different things and follow along with both conversations, and even if I don't do it often (freaks people out) I can write different things at the same time using both hands on different notepads. In the end, I consider it a gift because it makes me rock at multitasking!
That said, when I brought this up to my very first psychiatrist many years ago, he half-jokingly suggested my brain should go through "couples counseling". Lol! Actually, that helped. I was hypnotized many times in the course of my therapy to disable one side of my brain or the other so the therapist could examine only one of myselves at a time. Eventually, I learned meditation in order to do the same. If you feel like two people, make sure you try making them get along.
Feel like there are 2 different people in me
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I know exactly how you feel because I feel the same way. I don't have any solid answers why this happens, but I have a personal theory. I think it might relate somehow to being ambidextrous. I've read that ambidextrous people like me often have the same faculties on both sides of their brain (math, logic, creative, speech), whereas those faculties are separated into different hemispheres of the brain in left and right-handed people. Add that together with a reduced number of connections between the two hemispheres and I think the result is probably what you and I go through- the feeling of being two different people in one, having two inner monologs that can think independent of the other, and even have different desires or be in conflict with each other.
Aside from the frequent discomfort of having occasionally conflicting minds, I actually think it's a gift. Unlike most people, I can do things like talk to a coworker while continuing to type out an email. I can listen keenly to a person on either side of me saying different things and follow along with both conversations, and even if I don't do it often (freaks people out) I can write different things at the same time using both hands on different notepads. In the end, I consider it a gift because it makes me rock at multitasking!
That said, when I brought this up to my very first psychiatrist many years ago, he half-jokingly suggested my brain should go through "couples counseling". Lol! Actually, that helped. I was hypnotized many times in the course of my therapy to disable one side of my brain or the other so the therapist could examine only one of myselves at a time. Eventually, I learned meditation in order to do the same. If you feel like two people, make sure you try making them get along.
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I wonder if you're siamese twins, conjoined at the whole body.