I'm very sorry to hear that. I can't imagine how terrifying this must be for you. I hope that you can find the strength within yourself to never give up hope and to come to terms with your illness and fight and never give up fighting.
I'm sure there are people in your life such as family that would want nothing more than to see you battling the odds and staying optimistic that you can beat this! Remember-you have cancer; but the cancer does not have you.
Thank You for your sensitive & caring reply..Bleach2476(606606)..Family is another part of this devastating blow..I have no Family to speak of really..my husband..god love him..but only child of mine and I are a broken unit for a while now..she does not know and I do not want her with this knowledge..in the process of a verbal argument past month & half ago..she called via phone and wished me..death..how ironic..now I'm adult and smart enough to realize this diagnosis certainly was not cursed or caused because of this..but what kind of child would or could even bring them selves to say such a thing to their parent/mother?..die, die, die..she said, I wish you were dead!!..last words in my ears and etched in my mind forever (hu!! whatever my forever is now1) I wasen't even sick at the time..have been living with emphesema..but managing it..until three weeks ago ..respiratory infection so severe..needed to have a chest x-ray which is how this tumor was found..for it was not there on my last x-ray one year and a half ago! and this is why I am so angry..if i've been living with this growing within, for all this time..why? why? darn it why? did I need to find out now..at end stage?..sorry this reply is so lengthly..forgive me..obviously along with my fears..I haven't had anyone to really talk to about the 'whhole' situation and unfortunately..you were the one who had to be in the line of my fire..lol, by your wonderful caring message. thank you..my invisible friend:)
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I'm very sorry to hear that. I can't imagine how terrifying this must be for you. I hope that you can find the strength within yourself to never give up hope and to come to terms with your illness and fight and never give up fighting.
I'm sure there are people in your life such as family that would want nothing more than to see you battling the odds and staying optimistic that you can beat this! Remember-you have cancer; but the cancer does not have you.
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Thank You for your sensitive & caring reply..Bleach2476(606606)..Family is another part of this devastating blow..I have no Family to speak of really..my husband..god love him..but only child of mine and I are a broken unit for a while now..she does not know and I do not want her with this knowledge..in the process of a verbal argument past month & half ago..she called via phone and wished me..death..how ironic..now I'm adult and smart enough to realize this diagnosis certainly was not cursed or caused because of this..but what kind of child would or could even bring them selves to say such a thing to their parent/mother?..die, die, die..she said, I wish you were dead!!..last words in my ears and etched in my mind forever (hu!! whatever my forever is now1) I wasen't even sick at the time..have been living with emphesema..but managing it..until three weeks ago ..respiratory infection so severe..needed to have a chest x-ray which is how this tumor was found..for it was not there on my last x-ray one year and a half ago! and this is why I am so angry..if i've been living with this growing within, for all this time..why? why? darn it why? did I need to find out now..at end stage?..sorry this reply is so lengthly..forgive me..obviously along with my fears..I haven't had anyone to really talk to about the 'whhole' situation and unfortunately..you were the one who had to be in the line of my fire..lol, by your wonderful caring message. thank you..my invisible friend:)