To be frank it is normal to feel this way under a set of circumstances. But as others mentioned I doubt you are objectively to blame. When a situation seems hopeless it can be oddly comforting to feel as though you took part in creating a bad result because it was a painful event and you would rather not have to live through something like it again. If it is your fault, you can either fix the problem or prevent future crises from ever happening again. That might sound like a contradiction in terms because placing blame on yourself for something so drastic is highly uncomfortable and not what anyone might think of as favorable. I’ve been in that mindset for years. It took thousands of clear cut examples and assurances for me to digest that awful shit happens that nobody can prepare for. I agree with others here as well that you will see improvement in your perspective as soon as you can be independent from what I assume is a toxic living environment. Taking charge, making your own mistakes devoid of anyone else to blame, and watching external difficulties transpire with or without your foresight will ease your pain, I hope.
Everything that goes wrong in my family is always my fault?
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To be frank it is normal to feel this way under a set of circumstances. But as others mentioned I doubt you are objectively to blame. When a situation seems hopeless it can be oddly comforting to feel as though you took part in creating a bad result because it was a painful event and you would rather not have to live through something like it again. If it is your fault, you can either fix the problem or prevent future crises from ever happening again. That might sound like a contradiction in terms because placing blame on yourself for something so drastic is highly uncomfortable and not what anyone might think of as favorable. I’ve been in that mindset for years. It took thousands of clear cut examples and assurances for me to digest that awful shit happens that nobody can prepare for. I agree with others here as well that you will see improvement in your perspective as soon as you can be independent from what I assume is a toxic living environment. Taking charge, making your own mistakes devoid of anyone else to blame, and watching external difficulties transpire with or without your foresight will ease your pain, I hope.