Everything that can go wrong, will go wrong
It's one of Murphy's laws and even though I am a pessimistic person, I always tried to keep my focus away from thinking that down-ish 'cause theres just no good that can come from it. Anyway, I can handle bad things happening to me, but seriously this last week has been ridiculous, first I got broken up with. Then I spilled water on computer I'm renting and already can't afford to be doing anyway, then it seems all my past mistakes were like outed to my friends (virtual, but still important to me I f**king hate when I tell people this story and they say "who cares, they're just on the internet" like they're still human beings and I'm upset that I had to hurt them. So I basically lost almost everyone I talk to on the net, it's really stupid like I befriended someone they all hate, whatever. Thats what triggered them telling like all my secrets. The stupid part about all of this is I was trying to better my life right before this weird chain reaction. I'm 21, on unemployment so I logically finally pushed myself to apply for college, and now it's like the counselor is messing with me trying to sell me on the idea too hard, and I'm not even sure shes gonna give me the leftover money from the loans I took out to buy a car and a computer. She's making it sound like it will be whatever the financial aid will pay and then the rest in stupid loans even though I opted to take out the limit of 10 grand. Anyway I've just reached this point where I feel like I just can't do it anymore, one problem hell even two are do-able, this isn't. I've been drinking a lot to deal with it too, and that's not good. Any logical advice? Oh please be nice too, I was a little afraid of posting this LOL.