This is absolutely normal. It sounds as though you are transgendered, and you should embrace this!
I would talk to your partner about how you feel, if she doesn't know about this integral part of who you are, then she isn't really dating you (I say you here as in the you that you are suppressing, redundant, i know).
Any partner who is worth your time will be understanding and loving, and since she loves you, and you are the woman who you identify as whether you transition or not, then your gender really should not change how she feels about you.
Coming out as a woman will be difficult, I can guarantee that. This being said, can you see yourself being truly happy in the closet? What I said about your partner applies to your family also: your gender does not change who you are as a person, your quirks, your traits, your likes or dislikes, etc.
This is getting a tad rambly, so I will just say that you should look into local resources for transgendered people, or join a group wherein you can express yourself and be surrounded by like-minded people.
Ever since i was a little boy i knew i was born the wrong gender
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This is absolutely normal. It sounds as though you are transgendered, and you should embrace this!
I would talk to your partner about how you feel, if she doesn't know about this integral part of who you are, then she isn't really dating you (I say you here as in the you that you are suppressing, redundant, i know).
Any partner who is worth your time will be understanding and loving, and since she loves you, and you are the woman who you identify as whether you transition or not, then your gender really should not change how she feels about you.
Coming out as a woman will be difficult, I can guarantee that. This being said, can you see yourself being truly happy in the closet? What I said about your partner applies to your family also: your gender does not change who you are as a person, your quirks, your traits, your likes or dislikes, etc.
This is getting a tad rambly, so I will just say that you should look into local resources for transgendered people, or join a group wherein you can express yourself and be surrounded by like-minded people.
Best of luck.