Emotionally attached with women but want sex with men

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Not sure if this is normal, but it's definitely ruining my life.
I'm female. Since grade 6 I've had these huge crushes on girls. When I was young I acted like a boy, played with boys, and even looked like a boy. I was made fun of so much during elementary that when I got to high school I set off to change myself. Now I look feminine, but still act like a tomboy. I've had a few relationships with guys in the past and am currently in a relationship with one. In many ways when I interact with my bf I feel that I'm the one in control of the relationship, and my physical actions during our intimate moments remind me how guyish I act.

I've now had 4 major crushes on girls that tend to debilitate my life. I'm moody, depressed, and basically utterly miserable because 1) I don't know if my feelings are real, 2) I'm afraid of letting people know, 3) I am 99.9999%% sure that the object of my desires would never accept me and 4) I don't want to scare her off.

I can't even enjoy the companionship of my bf anymore. I really never wanted this, I wanted to be normal.. I thought the feelings would go away. But they always seem to find their way back. I don't know what to do.

Here is the kicker... I don't think I want sex with women though. I enjoy having sex with my bf. However lately I find myself thinking about my crush when I am making out with my bf. So now I'm just really, really confused about my sexuality....

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  • p0c0no
    12 years ago

    Completely normal. I'm like that.. only difference is I'm a guy. Still, you can change it up a bit. Experimenting :)

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    It's okay to be bi. Mix it up a bit.

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  • [Old Memory]
    14 years ago

    Maybe you are Bi. Maybe not. Either is OK. Try and relax, not judge yourself harshly and give yourself time. Maybe even take a break (emotional vacation)from bf/gf thing altogether for awhile.

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  • xXLinnieXx
    14 years ago

    you may enjoy sex with guys but your still an obvious lesbian.. many lesbians feel the same way you do.

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  • NormalityMan
    14 years ago

    Normal. Just think of yourself bi. Your not the only woman who likes women. You can find a woman who you like. As for sex, strapons available. Find a bi girl you could get a 3 some

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  • LGforme
    14 years ago

    I'm kinda the same, I am into guys but I also find myself attracted to woman. Though I have had been intimate with a female and not yet a male it isn't a big deal. I prefer males though I've never tried anyway this is normal and it's called BISEXUAL when you find yourself attracted to both sexes. No need to worry many of us are Bi sexual, so there is nothing to worry about. Hope this helps

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