Embarressed and confused...iin?

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About a week ago, I went on a trip with my best friend and his family. We stayed in a room together. I've always been straight, had sex with only females and I never had any interest in a guy in a sexual way. My friend has been back in forth about his sexuality. I think when I first met him, he said he was pansexual, then I think he started to identify as grey-asexual panromance, then I think he changed his identity again but I don't know what it was. This never bothered me because he's a good friend of mine.

About a week ago, though, we stayed in a room together and we started talking about our problems (we both come from pretty bad families). He suddenly starts crying and even though I tried not to (I hate crying in front of my friends) I cried too and out of no where he kissed me. Crazy thing was I kissed him too and I actually wanted to. After that we were making out. We didn't have sex or anything but we made out for a long time before we stopped and just started laughing then I told him we couldn't tell anyone. Basically, I'm pretty damn embarrassed about the whole thing. I'm also confused because I enjoyed it but I never found guys attractive. If it makes anything different, my friend does have some feminine features and I always thought he'd make a hot chick.

So what do you think? Is it normal for me to be embarrassed about this whole thing? Am I gay or was it just the heat of the moment? WTF?

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  • tripw7
    9 years ago

    Very normal. This was no sexual experience. This was an emotional experience and you behaved like anyone would. Time will tell if you are gay or bi or just a emotional experience with a friend. This is what friends are for. Tell your friend that you really appreciate him and probably don't know what your true sexuality really is, but that you really appreciated his reaction and friendship.
    Good luck.

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  • TareBear20
    9 years ago

    He's the one who made the move, you just accepted it and liked it. I think it was a heat of the moment type thing. If you're thinking about it and desiring more of it than I'd say you're bi-curious and there's nothing wrong or abnormal about that. :)

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  • Ellenna
    9 years ago

    So you love each other? That's great, doesn't mean you have to get sexual with him again if you don't want to.

    Don't be embarrassed just be glad to have a good friend and that you love each other.

    I love to see men being physically affectionate, hugging and so on, not as a sexual turn on, it just gives me hope for the human race that some men are feeling free to do that in front of others.

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  • BetaSpectre
    9 years ago

    I'd say that We are all humans. Gender while a thing isn't a critical yay or nay physically. Its just that there is some social stigma against homosexuality. People can fall or have feelings for anything. Its just a part of what we are.

    I'd argue that it was sexual on some level. However, your social circles, or even personal morals will possible go the other direction.

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  • AnomCo
    9 years ago

    It is normal to be confused and excited about it. But personally it sounds like you have a great opportunity here and even though you are straight. Does not mean your soul-mate is a female.

    I know that sounds strange, but I am a strong believer in soul-mates and a soul mate will be the one human on this entire planet who can make you feel special every day for the rest of your life. Sounds like you may have found that person if you had such a strong connection with him and kissed back even though you are straight. Don't be scared about it, but do keep it secret until you are both ready and confident to tell others about it and once you know it is serious.

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