Dysfunctional life

at least ur not a 10 year old freak with dislexya add odd ocd adhd and bi-poler
like me...

WOW!!! YOU SUMMARIZED THE EXACT WAY I FEEL EXCEPT IN A WAY I COULD NEVER DO SO BEFORE! I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY PERSON LIKE THIS BUT WOW! I WOULD LOVE TO BE ABLE TO CHAT WITH YOU AND FIND OUT HOW SIMILAR OUR SITUATIONS AND FEELINGS ARE! IT HELPS TO TALK WITH PEOPLE IN THE SAME SITUATION!

I agree totally. I feel shity all the time as well.

people on here can be saying feel greatful of what you hve, becasue others may have it worse.

All well and said, it isnt as easy as that. At the end of the day it is your life that you have to live just as the others is to live theirs. we will have to deal with the situations that we are faced with and noone else. feeling as though you need to accept the 'misfortunes' (more likely the shitty way you are feeling) just becasue other may have it worse, in the end will only encourage feelings of guilt. you are responsible for you own life, good or bad and need to deal with whatever problems you have and are faced with.

From similar exprience and over the duration of 2 1.2 yrs, it has been pointed out by various people that i have been subject to mental abuse. This can be inflicted apon you by the closest of people, i.e your family AND NOTE this can be done unintentionally by them. I feel this may also be the case for you, i don't know. For me, i knew about mental abuse but i never really connected the dots for myself, rather after a living for years in a 'dampened' household i looked to blaming myself, i couldn't find a reason for it. I am new this 'discovery' i guess you could say and am attempting to 'heal' myself - its lead to many problems for me. Thats why i commented, i can relate to what you have said. The way my home life is making me feel has run through into my everyday life, even when i escapeit and socialize with normal people that respect me and don't put me down. It was my 'refuge' i guess you could say, untill now i just feel so shit all the time and have no faith in myself, i withdraw more and more socially becasue i am embarrased of myself - inside and out. I hope htis isnt that case for you, please don't take my comment as a 'diagnosis' (of you) becasue i don't know you. Im just sharing i guess?

i agree with drtywiteboy, u never know how other people have it. the grass always seems greener on the other side.
the truth is, all families have their problems.
maybe some councelling wouldn't be a bad idea, to help you cope.

i feel the exact same its like i wrote that insted of you i dont know if its normal (what is normal anyway)but i feel for you

as messed up as it is, there is ALWAYS someone worse off then you. i started to realize i didnt have it so bad when i met this guy named kyle. we became fast friends but he would never invite me over. turned out his ma was locking him in the closet when he would mess up... hes living with a foster family now, as i informed the cops about this. he was pissed at first but is glad i did so now. my point being, lighten up about life, and pray for those who have it worse, cause no matter how bad you think it is, think of the people who have really messed up familys, and force a smile.

I'm exactly like you. Outside this home, I'm alive and happening. I bring smiles to everyones faces (so I've heard), and I'm learning to incorporate that into my home life. When my grandma died, I nearly lost it. I stopped talking to my friends, and my grades slipped fast. But I learned that I shouldn't do that because I'm missing out on life. So don't hate other people because you think their lives are better, make your life better. Its in your hands.

Hang in there :)

It sounds like you are going through the same stuff that a lot of kids go through. I know i went through the same stuff. High school is such a small part of your life, believe me after you get out on your own things will be a lot more challenging but a lot better, just hang in their and youll be fine

Call up ol' Dr.Phil.
Just talk to your family and maybe plan a night where you are all together and happy. They might understand.

It sounds like your family situation is just taking its toll on you. Stick it out, study hard and get into a good college. I bet you will feel alot better when your living away from home.