Does my cousin have feelings for me?

Okay so the following going to sound prolly a bit weird mixed in with cute and confusing.

I met my cousin 2 years ago for the first time properly along w my younger sister. We all hit it off and each weekend for 5 or 6 months we had a blast going a lot of places together. She would say things such as the following-

I always think of you, where have you been all my life? I feel like a school kid again, I've never laughed so much in all my life, you're so funny, we have a strong spiritual connection like we are ways with each other. One time she said she were going to text and wish me a happy valentine's day but didnt as thought it to be inappropriate? We would buy each other gifts, look at each other straight in the eyes and smile and she would light up. I got super excited around her. We held hands once at a market, she said people prolly think we are gay! We had a great amount of joking around mixed with banter too! I'd sometimes talk w her on the phone for 1 -2hrs. Text quite frequently and say cute things. I also love her voice and her laugh. This was all kinda scary and intense and amazing. Once I said to her as a joke- 'If I were a man, would you marry me?", and I said to her she is beautiful. She asked me that same day "Idk if u have feelings for me? Idk to this day if she was joking or it were a serious question? I said well maybe u cant help it, shes like aww that's sweet.
I told her on the phone yesterday I love her a lot and dont feel a connection w many people and she said she finds it hard to say the L word but said I do love u guys a lot and how she loves me.

I am 28f