Do you have any bad childhood memories?

I had a very difficult childhood. My family is made up of mostly junkies, my closest relatives have been constantly unstable. The most stable of them went to prison for manslaughter at 17 years old, so he wasn't around for my childhood. My mother is crazy, her mother is crazier. My father was absent. My mother had very bad taste in men. This all led to many traumas.

I used to tell myself when I was young that if my mother had loved me, she would've aborted me; that that's how I knew she didn't love me.
I don't blame her as much anymore. She's crazy and she loves me as best she understands love.