At one point, probably when my self hate and depression were at their peak, I did try therapy. I was desperate. I was drinking myself to sleep and hated every minute of being me throughout the day.
The lady there boiled it down to the typical "mom and dad didn't hug you enough as a kid" That was bullshit, the love I got from my parents is unlike any other. I told the big expert it was bullshit and she could suck it and never bothered with therapy again.
A combination of drinking, a weekend job and trying to occupy myself with stuff helped. I still get times, where I sit awake at night with a glass of whiskey in my hand and I contemplate my life and hate parts of it, but at least I don't feel like a complete failure and that death is a possible solution. So that's something.
I'll tell you... self hate is a really nasty thing. I don't have a bad life. In reality my life is good. Some might say I'm living the dream. But when you hate everything about yourself, no amount of praise will change that.
Do you go to therapy?
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At one point, probably when my self hate and depression were at their peak, I did try therapy. I was desperate. I was drinking myself to sleep and hated every minute of being me throughout the day.
The lady there boiled it down to the typical "mom and dad didn't hug you enough as a kid" That was bullshit, the love I got from my parents is unlike any other. I told the big expert it was bullshit and she could suck it and never bothered with therapy again.
A combination of drinking, a weekend job and trying to occupy myself with stuff helped. I still get times, where I sit awake at night with a glass of whiskey in my hand and I contemplate my life and hate parts of it, but at least I don't feel like a complete failure and that death is a possible solution. So that's something.
I'll tell you... self hate is a really nasty thing. I don't have a bad life. In reality my life is good. Some might say I'm living the dream. But when you hate everything about yourself, no amount of praise will change that.
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"The lady there boiled it down to the typical "mom and dad didn't hug you enough as a kid"
Kind of like at a doctor when they say, "lose weight and stop smoking".
Generic answers. I do not know how doctors pull in six figures a year by telling people generic answers that anyone could say.
I went to therapy after i was suicidal but my issues were caused by brain chemical imbalance and the wrong meds, not a situation or circumstances.