I feel like I can always think what the other person thinks. I used to use it as an advantage but soon it goes out of bounds. It was after the obsessive-compulsive disorder that I had acquired, when I actually started realize how bad everything was. I know what that person thinks, which is often something bad, and then I start to feel awkward, and then suddenly we have a mind-to-mind connection in which he knows that I know what he is thinking. And then I start to help him think of his worries, e.g. what if his boss knows what we were both thinking of, which is not very nice, then I start to fear for him. And this all happens during the mind-to-mind connection, which means he would now also know his possible fear for himself. And then now it is an even bigger problem, in which his boss might join in for the mind-to-mind connection, which is the worst possible case. And normally the boss does not believe what he "sees" so he gives up. It is just like I imagine some unbelievably notorious relationship between me and him, and trap myself into believing that and act accordingly, like trying to act fakely during public circumstances (this is what he thinks I am doing) But actually, when I try to act fakely, I am not actually conscientious that I am acting, I am just believing in something imaginary and acting in that certain way because of my obsessive compulsive disorder. Then the disorder kicks in again and I would start thinking of the bad consequences that could happen, like the boss knowing etc. After that it kicks in again, I fear that he would be scared for my bringing him to my imaginary vision which seems really dangerous if others manage to see it. So since he had a mind-to-mind connection, he knows completely of what I am thinking of and what situation I am forcing him to be in, so he would trace his fear back to me, and the ocd kicks in again by fearing that his fear that I created would cause him to hate me, and consequently affect how he treats me.
Do people know what I'm thinking? IIN?
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I feel like I can always think what the other person thinks. I used to use it as an advantage but soon it goes out of bounds. It was after the obsessive-compulsive disorder that I had acquired, when I actually started realize how bad everything was. I know what that person thinks, which is often something bad, and then I start to feel awkward, and then suddenly we have a mind-to-mind connection in which he knows that I know what he is thinking. And then I start to help him think of his worries, e.g. what if his boss knows what we were both thinking of, which is not very nice, then I start to fear for him. And this all happens during the mind-to-mind connection, which means he would now also know his possible fear for himself. And then now it is an even bigger problem, in which his boss might join in for the mind-to-mind connection, which is the worst possible case. And normally the boss does not believe what he "sees" so he gives up. It is just like I imagine some unbelievably notorious relationship between me and him, and trap myself into believing that and act accordingly, like trying to act fakely during public circumstances (this is what he thinks I am doing) But actually, when I try to act fakely, I am not actually conscientious that I am acting, I am just believing in something imaginary and acting in that certain way because of my obsessive compulsive disorder. Then the disorder kicks in again and I would start thinking of the bad consequences that could happen, like the boss knowing etc. After that it kicks in again, I fear that he would be scared for my bringing him to my imaginary vision which seems really dangerous if others manage to see it. So since he had a mind-to-mind connection, he knows completely of what I am thinking of and what situation I am forcing him to be in, so he would trace his fear back to me, and the ocd kicks in again by fearing that his fear that I created would cause him to hate me, and consequently affect how he treats me.