Do i need to seek help?

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I've been in the children's psychiatry unit 2 times the past 2 years, once for trying to kill myself. I jumped out of my window, but it was a fail. I just fractured my back. I think i'm fine now but i'm not the same person I was before. I don't really care about anything anymore. Its not even a thing where I want to get out of town and start my life over, I just want to go to sleep forever. I have found I am not good at making friends and that I take everything too personal and become angered very easily. I see how big of a letdown I have already been to my family and I can't leave them with the name of "the family with the physio daughter that killed herself", but at the same time I want pain. I want someone to rob the store i'm shopping in so I can accidentally say the wrong thing and get shot. I want them to pull the trigger so I can just not be here anymore. I honestly don't think it's depression but I don't know if I should get help, or just leave it alone.

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  • paramore93
    6 years ago

    Yeah I think you could feel so much better with the right help. Be it therapy or the mental health team working with you.
    I have been in units more times than I can remember and they can make you 10x worse. Care in the community ftw!
    I've been where you are now and talking to the right people is what made me feel somewhat normal :)
    You won't feel this crap forever.

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  • jaystrong
    6 years ago

    You need professional help and while you're at it go help others. To see the wonders you can do to help the young, the old, the poor or those in some sort of needs will show you how important you really are.
    Go do it now! Good luck.

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    • jaystrong
      6 years ago

      Get your mind off your problems and see how others have it just as rough. Plus it could just be a lull, a bad few months you're having. Seriously! The best thing to do is help others.

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  • Boojum
    6 years ago

    The insidious thing about depression is that it's very easy to believe that you're not depressed when you are.

    Often, it's only after you've moved into a better place that you look back and realize how low you were, and how your view of yourself and the world was totally screwed up.

    If you don't care about anything, you want to sleep forever, and you're thinking about how you can commit suicide by robber, then it sounds like you are depressed, and you should seek help.

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  • Nickvey
    6 years ago

    all the new things in this life you havent tried yet and you tried suicide? i would have tried jumping out a window as well , but i had a parachute. thats the difference between us i guess.

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  • nikkiclaire
    6 years ago

    I was recently in your shoes as far as the suicide side of things, but for very different reasons.

    I was in a mental ward for well over a month and I have to say it was good for me. Not the doctors or medication or anything, none of that helped. What helped me.was the other patients.

    I learned that by talking with them openly and honestly I could begin to get perspective and make changes in my life. I also learned how strong I really am.

    You don't have to suffer.

    I won't sit here and blow sunshine up your ass and tell you how wonderful and unique you are. I will say what another patient said to me.

    "If you are hurting so much, and are brave enough to try to end your life, how could living your life on your terms be any harder. Just be yourself and if it all goes to shit again, you are no worse off than you are now."

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