Do i have a wall up without realising it ?
2 years ago I was rejected by the love of my life. Ever since that I don't feel the same. I feel empty and a longing of wishing it were different. Literally hundreds of people say the same old boring crap "Move on, time heals, plenty fish in the sea...blah blah blah"
It's not that simple, it may be for some people easier but for me it was all or nothing. I have given it plenty of time, I have met plenty of different people. I like my life but I don'tlike how I feel no connection for anyone. I don't feel that fuzzy warmth and excitement when she was coming over to see me. I don't want anyone else but at the same time I know I have to let go. I have a great guy friend who's interested in me and I just don't feel anything. No one excites me. I'm in different but I dont know if I have a wall up or I'm just asexual and she was an exception. I never really had sexual desires or feelings but I could easily have done stuff with her cause I loved her.
Do I have physiological problems in my subconscious cause of her ? I developed extra social anxiety ever since that situation tbh. I think I have a wall up without realising but I don't know??