Do i find my gay best friend more than that?
I'm a girl and my best friend is gay. We sometimes drool over the same guys and were always making jokes about him acting like a girl all the time. The thing is, whenever he stays over my house it feel different somehow. He sits on my lap, which I'm fine with, but one time I swear he put his head on my boob on purpose. I told him to watch it and the guys might get jealous but he pulled away and said that he was ashamed with himself and that he was sorry. It was a confusing reaction I must say.
He likes to lay on my bed with me. My computer is at the end of my bed so I lay down against the wall and he lays right next to me, but so there is no space between us at all. There is pleanty of room for space, but its always so my boobs are pressed right up against his back or something. Another instance is the last time he came over. I was laying down on my sofa and he was sleeping on the matress on the floor and he just got up and layed down on me. Im talking FULL ON on top of me. If not for the cover it would have been extremely intimate.
Last time he came over for a sleepover he kept touching and like caressing, a little bit more than friendly I think. I'm not sure at all. I could be over analysing everything, but things seemed a little different. When he was sitting next to me on the computer he looked a little uncomfortable and I swear I got the vibe that he was having trouble in the nether reigons, but I just ignored it and thoguht I was being stupid again.
Last time he came over he took his shirt off and to my shock I found him attractive. I found myself wanting to stroke his spine when he face away from me, but it wasnt certain attraction, more casual like 'i wonder what the skin on his back feels like'. I've always wanted to kiss and lick his hands, but that could just be down to my hand fettish.
In all truth, I love my best friend deeply, but I dont know if my feelings are starting to change. He's gay, but never had a male sexual partner, he just says he finds the male sex attractive.
Any opinions on this?